The stars are far away
Saturday, January 29, 2005
  A little something we go through everyday
A little disappointment will come our way
Every minute, every hour, every single day..
Caused by actions, words or maybe speech,
friends, families, loved one who words we keep,
or even ourselves in times of need
when expectations we fail to meet.

A sudden surge of sourness runs in our heart,
leaving a permanent mark.
A little aching lingers beneath our skin,
hinting to us things weren't meant to be.

Sometimes reproach, to hard to bare,
that's when you know friends are there to care.

Not our favourite feeling,
when everything is going down, down, down.
Not the best way to spend our time,
when there's so much more to do right now.
Inevitable that's all i have to say,
sometimes, somewhere, dissappointment overtook our day.

The more i know about you,
the more dissappointed i beciome.
The more i see you everyday,
the more i wished you weren't there.
The more i know your inner thoughts,
i wished you kept everything to yourself.

So this poem, i give to you.
All i wish to say to you is
" POo PoO poO Poo"
for blowing dark clouds into my life,
when all i wanted was a sunny sky.
This is how you make me feel,
but i guess you never knew- so shoOOOo.








 
Friday, January 28, 2005
 
"To meet and part is the way of life. To part and meet is the hope of life."
 
 

Which Naruto Character are You?
quiz by orangeday.net
 
  Touched by a Soul
She might have her own thoughts, her own principals, and she admits how pragmatic she is, but ultimately i see a beautiful soul behind the strong front that she puts. She doesn't bother to hide her dissatisfaction and she's straight forward, not hypocritical at all. At the same time, she can be so fun loving and nice to who she wants to be. I can't deny that i am very impressed and touched by all that she has done for me so far.

The girl i'm talking about is Hui Chun. Recently, being in the same class and school as her has revealed lots of things about her which was hidden from me for the past 4 years. An elder sister, a friend, so much more that she is to me. I might not be that close to her because in the past, we rarely conversed but now things changed. We talk pretty often and most of the time, she's the one with me. I'm glad that she's with me =). From the days when i was in Temasek Sec, whenever i go for PSL camps, very often i'll be all alone. Hui Chun and JingQin will never hesistate to reach out to me and accept me, accompanying me. I will always remember those days and how grateful i am to them for making me feel less homesick. These images will always be etched in my heart.

Furthermore, yesterday while we were having our PE and had to run 8 rounds around the track, Hui Chun's gesture really touched me. She accompanied me throughout the eight round and gave me constant encouragement. You will never know how much that means to me. At the 5 and 6 round, i felt like giving up and decided to walk. She was there beside me encouraging me to pick up and continue running and i did. Furthermore at the 6 round, she knew i was giving up, she held my hand and we ran together like that. That was such so sweet. Her gesture made me feel so touched. I wanted to thank her for everything but i was feeling shy. I don't know what to say but Chun, Thanks for always being there when i need you in really funny circumstances i must say. =)
 
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
  I'm paranoid
Oh my gosh ! He knows that i think he's cute. Oh no. This is bad. I shouldn't have told Coolio that i think his friend is cute. I'm like feeling so paranoid now like what am i suppose to do. I thought Coolio was joking when he told me he was going to tell his friend. Now his friend has figured it out and knows that i think he is cute. Oh No. I hope he doesn't have any wrong idea but i don't like him at all. Its so embarrassing ! I feel like putting a trash bag over my head whenever he walks past. Coolio's fault ! Hmpf Hmpf Hmpf ! ArhzZzz..How !! I don't like this feeling of being misunderstood because i don't like him at all. Go away go away go away stupid thoughts. Leave me alone ! I don't want to go to school anymore. Period ! ( but obviously i can't do that ) -Screams-
 
  Some interesting stuff that happens during AO maths lecture with Mr Tan aka Mr T =D
A Short note: Mr Tan is the Hod of maths in tpjc..

Mr Tan on conjugate surds:

" If you know the rule, you will know straight away that its a x b but if you want to show off, * points at transparency* Aaaa..how to show off ar ? "

A conversation Hairianto ( classmate of mine ) had with Mr tan when he couldn't solve a question..

Hairianto and his multiplication : 4 x 5 = 45
Mr Tan: ya ya *ponders for awhile*
Mr Tan: Aiya, 4 x 5 = 20, what 45
Hairianto: Oh yah, its 4 x 5 = 20, we can all be great mathematician next time
Mr Tan: Haiyo, i also follow you, 4 x 5 = 45 (-_-")

Now once again Mr Tan on exams
" Exam is the time to show off,. After exam, there's no time to show off."

Comments by me: hmm..now we know..show off during exams kay haha

Lastly Mr Tan on the rule of indices ( M to the power of 2 times M to the power of of 3 = m to the power of 5 )

"2 to the power of 2 multiply by 3 to the power of 2 is not 6 to the power of 2 okay. One cat, one dog, how to multiply ? "

The following extract is copyrighted to Class 05A02 of year 2005 in tpjc. We love Mr Tan ( but i love Mr Adrian Ong better =x )

 
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
  Run Run Run..
The Pe in Tpjc is horrendous !!!!!! *eyes pops out*...* pushes it backs* =x haha yep the Pe is scary man. Running, running and more running. I believe most Jcs are doing this because of the upcoming cross country ya. I empathize with you guys. Its extremely exhuasting..* pants pants* Yesterday we ran 6 rounds round the track. (2.4km) to make it worse we still had to be burpees, sit ups, jumping jumps and push ups ( 2 sets ). The teacher is tyrannical and a little sadistic. *ponders* shake head.. nonono maybe he is really sadistic ! He had the cheeks to say after the exercise " Don't close your eyes, you might not get to open it after that." Double hmpf to him. I prefer my Pe teacher, Mrs Koh ( She was on leave yesterday ) Let me tell you something remarkable about her. When she was pregnant, she gained 33kg !!!!!!!! 33 kg okay ( no kidding ) and she has shed 20kg so far *claps claps*. Power, don't you think so. The epitome of determination. Nod head.. Even though she still has 13 Kg to shed before returning to her original size, I think she rocks~ *whistles*

Oh and the Taf in Tpjc is really fun. We do pilates and DDR ( you know the arcade dance thingy ) in addition to the normal workouts like running. They make it really enjoyable and i'm actually happy to be in Taf =x

*Think think* I haven't fill you guys in on my first badminton practice right, so here goes..

Warm ups : 3 rounds around the track, push ups and sit ups
Conditioning: Footwork ( Where we run all around the court )

After completing these two segments, we get down to actual playing for about 2-3 hours among ourselves. yep yep. It made me see the importance of footwork because i didn't place heavy emphasize on footwork previously and i have to admit, footwork is important. I'm glad to be in Badminton =)

Next up, i shall talk about my lovely AO maths teacher. *swoons* He is so so charming. I'm like smiling all the way in class ( as observed by my classmate ) He is so cute ! *blushes* I'm motivated to do well for AO maths - evil laughs- He is ever so patient and a little blur at times but ultimately he makes me smile so yah lalala..

Life is good ! Praise the Lord..Emmanuel ! Hope you guys are fine too ya. 4e3,i miss you guys lots.
 
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
  You'll never know what i'm trying to tell you through my eyes
It started out as respect for you, which slowly turned to utter disappointment but now i guess i have to be indifferent so that i will be happy... Tragedy because i wanted so badly to know you better, now all we are, are mere accquaintances.
 
  10 things about me
The ten thing about me which i don't like

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oh there's nothing that i don't like about myself.. *beams* i simply love myself too much haha =x
 
Monday, January 17, 2005
  The start of tutorials..
Monday !!! Its a brand new week and i'm already into the third week in Tpjc. Tutorials started today and i had tutorials all the way from 7.40am all the way to 4.10pm. I'm am officially drained up..Its both physically and mentally exhausting. Apparently for now, the arts stream students' timetable are more packed than the science stream students. *Tired* but at the same time i'm enjoying myself in Tpjc. =D I don't have any long breaks in between lessons so you can imagine me rushing all over the school like a mad woman haha. Anyway tutorials are pretty fun and i like most of my teachers, they make lessons pretty interesting like my Gp teacher Mrs Winnie Wee. She told us this sexist quote today. Guys be warned as its not very nice haha.. " Patience is a virtue, possess it if you can..rarely found in woman, never found in man. " Like oOps =x haha and she has many more sexist quotes stalled in that little mind of hers. * sniggers*

Furthermore, S5Ao2 ( my civics class) rocks !!!! They are such vibrant and enthusiastic people and everyone is just so bubbly and fun loving.. not forgetting open minded people..Lesbians orgies ya Sarah ( hur hur) Its so easy to get along with them, though nothing can match my beloved 4/3..i miss you guys..

Anyway my chinese teacher chose me as the chinese rap (-_-")..i think its because i went rattling on and on during Chinese..gosh~

And guess what..I'm officially in the Badminton team for tpjc for the first three months..*jumps around* !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i thought i won't make it but it turned out otherwise. Training starts this wednesday, i can't wait ! Ronald Susilo...*swoons*

My Soul Delights in the Lord, my strength and my fortress =D
 
Thursday, January 13, 2005
  blogging in the school library
This is way cool man..i'm blogging in the tpjc school library now..muahaha *evil laughs* i feel like i'm doing something illegal..Anyway i'm having my break now, so i came to check out the school library. It looks pretty nice and spacious..and there's even a space with a hi fi set and headphones to let you listen to music while you do your work..cool right..muahaha..! Can't wait to check out the books that are available after i finished using the computer. I have so many books that i wish to borrow but haha i have a hefty fine of six dollars from the nation library. =x oOps..did i ever mention that i always incur really large amount of library fines because i always forget to return them. The most being thirty dollars haha.. Anyway as usual the school library's computer is a little laggy so i shall stop here. Have a great day ahead people ! Smile !
 
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
  Badminton dream
When i feel disappointed, i....

I don't really know, all i know is that i'm pretty disappointed right now with myself. I think i didn't make it into tpjc badminton team, so sad !! =( I feel lost like i have no idea what cca to join. Somebody help me..!!! Disappointed, disappointed, disappointed !!!
 
Saturday, January 08, 2005
  The meaning of Star-dust
star-dust- (literally) something which causes a pleasant dreamy or romantic feeling.

I found a star-dust.
Laughter, happiness and joy came my way.
I was in bliss.
But the star-dust was unreal, too unreal to embrace.
The feeling is still there but my star-dust left.
Emptiness sets in and disappointment became all i have,
I should have known Happiness wasn't meant to be my friend..
Nothing lasts forever.

Now i know whenever i seek for my happiness, all i have to do is to search within..
I will remember you, the star-dust that made me sigh.

 
  Let's go Sirius, Let's go !
Somebody please tell me that its not over..

We had our cca orientation and orientation night yesterday. Shall touch on cca orientation first..

Cca orientation was basically very simple, booths were set up and the Jc 1s will walk around and sign up for the ccas we want.. I dragged Abi for the Choir Audition, i could tell she was unwilling and very scared but muahaha i'm evil. Abigail, i'm really proud of you that you tried ! thumbs up ! hee then we went to sign up for band...=x can you believe it, i actually end up signing up for band !!! It was after much enquiry and careful thoughts that i decided to give tpjc band a try, however badminton is still my first choice hee..=D There's going to be a competition this coming wednesday. I hope i can get in. I'm also going to join gavel, interact and library..haha..that's a lot right =x

The drama club people were really scary. They scared the daylights out of me ( literally). Their posters read "Sell your souls to Drama Club" so on the actual day of the cca orientation, they dressed up as zombie ( pale lips with blood flowing out, and a robe over them ..yeEEeEEe !!!) then they walked around the school and touch people !!!! oh man !!!!!!!! freaky !!!!

Haha my OGLs are all soccerboys so i went to peek at their booth and as usual, they never fail to make me laugh. They were practically sleeping at the booth. All of them looked so bored esp Kozaw..funny~

I went to the air rifle range too, with JingQin, HuiChun and WenJing. Haha i didn't touched the rifle but i heard its around 4kg to 5kg, heavy ya. The councilor who was in air rifle was so funny, he kept firing at himself just to prove his point that the rifle is not loaded (-_-"). Rhetorical ??!!! but he's funny and really friendly. JingQin, HuiChun and WenJing are joining this chinese singing society and guitar club, cute right, like free k box haha.

Basically these are the highlights of the cca orientation !

Orientation Night was simply beautiful !!!! That's all i can say to describe the night..BEAUTIFUL !!!

The evening started out with the lighting up of the campfire and i thought we were going to have the whole OG night there but we moved into the hall shortly after the campfire was lighted up..haha sweat !!! i was like what's the point of lighting it up then !!!!! Anyway i didn't know tpjc's hall was air conditioned..bet you didn't know too right haha. There was this councilor who commented that i'm slow..i'm not okay, most OGMs didn't know -sticks tongue out- I was so amused haha.

Then came the performances. I must say most groups did a fantastic job with the performance but frankly Sirius rocks !!!!!!!! When i saw our OGLS who joined our group to dance and Kozaw doing his dance, i almost cried. I LOVE SIRIUS !!! I LOVE MY OGLS !!! I feel so sad that orientation is going to end =( but oh well i hope we can still talk to one another..and we are going to have a family bbq hee whee hee..!!!! When the live band was performing, we formed a line and ran around the whole hall. It was havoc man but i had so much fun =D. After the whole orientation night was officially over, most were reluctant to leave because we were all feeling so 'high' that we ended up dancing in the school hall haha..Our OGLS made something out of cloth peg for us..so sweet =D i love them !!!! Sirius 8 ( my group) made a card for them, hope you guys like it !!!!

We even went out for Supper and gave Matthew ( Sirius papa ) a headache =x haha supper was very fun too as we went to eat roti prata but everyone wasn't too enthusiastic about eating roti prata with added ingredient- rain =x..

I smile whenever i think about my OG...Somebody please tell me that its not over !
 
Thursday, January 06, 2005
  Hurts to see a person you loved become a total stranger..
While waiting for the next lecture to start today, Hui Chun and me started talking about Secondary School life and we touched on the topic about relationships. She told me some things i didn't want to know. I got to know that you two timed me again and again. I don't want to know, if you are playing me, keep it on the low. I don't know what to say to you. I loved you with all my heart, all my soul. There were times, i admit when i thought that we were going no where, there were times when i wanted to just let go but i didn't all because i love you, i don't want to hurt you. All i get in return are all truth about you that hurts. Truth about how you asked her to be with you when in fact we were together. Even though we are no longer together and i thought i'm gradually healing, i realised today that it still upsets me. A sudden sadness just dawned on me. I have so much to tell you but its no use. I refuse to believe that someone i use to love so much could actually hurt me so badly. I choose to believe you are still the you whom i fell for. The beautiful soul. The Sensitive soul. I still believes in it, that you are actually a very decent and trustworthy person. Someone whom i can pour out my heart to even though we are just friends now. Someone who truly cares. I'm having all sorts of incoherent thoughts in my head again, just like in the past when i struggled to make myself trust in you. Please don't make me lose this trust even as a friend. Please stay true, that's all i ask of you.

Its sad when you know its their hearts you can't trust. I still love you silently, silently...
 
  My first lectures
My gosh, introductory lectures started today. I chose Lit, His and Econs ( A level) and AO maths and AO chinese. Literature is going to be so interesting as we are going into the genre of Gothic as one of the topics. Pretty cool ya ! Mr Reynard ( Head of English) gave the speech today and he is so humourous and charasmatic. I wished he was my lecturer but oh well he teaches the year 2s, so yep haha i'm looking forward to Literature Lectures. Economics was pretty okay, reminded me of Social studies though. The lecturer was like telling us everything in his life is Economics. When he decides whether to take a bus or buy food, he will think about it in the viewpoint of a Economist. Haha that's pretty silly. That's not the end, then he added if he thinks too much and end up doing nothing, he is wasting precious time which is money. Sweat ! I felt like telling him if you need to travel, just go ahead and take a bus. If you are hungry, please just go ahead and get something to eat. -sticks tongue out- I hope i can cope well with Economics. History gave me quite a bad scare. I feel that i'll lose out if i take History simply because the syllabus for History is similar to that of the O's, hence those who took History for O's will benefit. I don't want to be left behind ! Fortunately Hui Chun is giving me her history textbook to let me do something reading beforehand. Thanks Chun ! Basically only these 3 subjects were on the schedule today so we were dismissed at around 1 pm whee hee !!!

I like the feeling of sitting in a lecture hall and listening the lecturer. I feel so motivated ! =D i think Jc life has a lot in stall for me. I can't wait for lesson proper to start..=x but i'll miss my OG lots. They are organising a bbq for the whole family, the whole Sirius family. They are so sweet right =) and my group is the only group that has a contact list printed ( courteousy of Kosaw who doesn't know how to use Microsoft Excel haha ) Sirius 8 rocks !

I'm going to have AO maths lecture tomorrow.. *screams* haha
 
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
  I'm loving it
That's right, I'm loving Tpjc !! Tpjc Rocks. Sirius group 8 rocks big time ! I'm having so much in tpjc. My Ogls are simply fantastic. We had water games today and boy did we get wet haha we even went into the field and got all muddy from top to toe. We crawled on the mud haha..EeWwww ! But the games were fantastic and i can feel that Sirius 8 is bonding =D. *Grins*
I broke my toe nail though *ouch* It did hurt a little.. then so many of them were so sweet and ask me to rest hee.. thanks guys =) Now all i feel is happiness, happy happy happy ! We played truth and dare too, and asked lots of stupid stupid, dirty questions Ahem !!! haha explicit details =x Kozaw was as usually telling us all his jokes which never seems to run out..haha the Ogl's won't be with us most of the time tomorrow..i'll miss them =( haha..Tpjc is so much fun !!!!

The only negative part: Pentagon isn't there to share with me their joy =( i miss them so much, yes van, mal, cheryl, zhuang i miss you guys lots. Everytime i have my meals, i think about our special rule. No one is there to share it with me. Anyway we must jia you in our individual Jcs ya. !!! Love you guys !!!

 
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
  Tpjc
I'm in Sirius Group 8 =)
Tpjc Rocks !
i like the people there.
i like the culture there.
i like my OGL, they are so fun and happening !
i like my OG.
Sirius rocks.
I can't wait for school tomorrow !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
 
4th day in Thailand
Okay we woke up really early that day !! 6am !! To make it worse, i was chatting with my little brother all the way till 2am about some things which is for me to know and for you to find out =p. Anyway we went to Chaptucha that very morning ! Chaptucha has like 8000 stores !!!!!!!!! yes you got me right around 800 can you imagine how big it is ! Its like a night market just that this time 8000 of them ! It was shopping paradise ! They even sell animals like rabbits and dogs there. The puppies are super adorable, but i can't buy them back. What a waste !! i love the puppies !!! Anyway it was simply shop to you drop day man ! At night we went to Zen ( Jap restaurant for dinner) ! Yum yum and more shopping =x haha until like 11pm? what can i say..
Anyway had a short break from 3-4pm and i went swimming in the hotel. They have 2 swimming pools, one at level 12, the other at level 4. The water was COLD !!! BRRrrrRRRRR ! *jumps in* screams !

5th day in Thailand
We were supposed to go to the Floating Market but the journey supposedly took like 2 hours, so the children (we) protested !!!!! We ended up in Chinatown instead, the journey there was horrible. The taxi drivers in Thailand are horrible ! They are paid commission if they bring tourists to a desinated shop and because Chinatown is so near my hotel, they refused to send us there unless we agree to visit the shop first . Baddie !!!!!! After like half an hour, we finally find a nice taxi driver to send us there. The taxi driver is sOOOOoo cute can.. He thought we were from China so my aunt played along with him..muahahaha =x then we were all talking with a fake chinese accent..(lalala) The conversation continued with durians ?? keke..it was a fun ride !!! I bought quite a lot of things in Chinatown, hair accesories, necklaces and a tigger and Eeyor softtoy *swoons* ! love Chinatown and i got durian chips for Ziyang there. whee hee..

Soon after we went back to the hotel for a rest and took the mrt to Central Plaza after that. More shopping ! We were practically lost after we alighted from the mrt, sweat ~ we continued on our aimless journey for 2 hours before me and my cousin decided to ask a salesgirl in Watson ( we are smart) and tada we found it *clap clap* Children rocks ! haha and we continued our shopping there, i bought $60 worth of Ahem Ahem =x haha..It was simply a shopping paradise !

6th day in Thailand
H0me Sweet home =) Valuair once again !

 

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