Went to Suntec just now to get some stuff and i went to the kbox there to look for James. He told me that he was going to be transferred there. Saw Yuen Yuen too : ) Miss Miss Miss

I like James because he's always so happy to see me
I like James because he always ruffles my hair when he sees me
I like James because he calls me to ask me to go back to kbox to visit
I like James because he calls me just to make sure i have his new number
I like James because he sings well
I like James because we shook hands and we didn't know if we should let go
I like James because he's very gentlemanly to girls
I like James because he whispers in my ears (because i'm short x_X)
I like James because he lets me whisper in his ears ( Yes because i'm short x_X)
I like James because he lets me beat his tummy
I like James because he paid for my taxi ride
I like James because he took care of me when i was drunk
I like James because he makes me feel important

:)





oh by the way don't get the wrong idea..James in just a friend who is really really really sweet.
谢谢你! 你真得让我觉得自己很重要。我会尽量抽出时间找你和其他 kmpb people. Miss miss miss

  ¶ 3:19 AM

  糖果

糖果,
圆圆的
握在手里
心里感觉好扎实。

糖果，
亮亮的
五彩缤纷
看了让我好心动。

糖果，
甜甜的
含在嘴里
不舍得把它吃掉。

糖果
你给的
让我贪心
一直眷恋这滋味。





想着他
想着你
想着我

你说他
你说你
你说我

是爱他
是爱你
是爱我

因为他
因为你
因为我

为了他
为了你
为了我

爱着他
爱着你
爱着我

你像他
你像你
你像我

吗？是否
吗？可否
吗？能否  ¶ 2:25 PM

  Last week baby Nicholas had a haircut..isn't he just the sweetest thing <3



Okay actually both Ginger and Nicholas went for a haircut but hahas Nicholas is just so adorable !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He looks like a baby bear now. I heart heart Nicholas !!! I'm not biased okay, i heart heart Jackie and Ginger too hahahahas =x Pups, Mops and Pop brought Jackie to the vet on saturday as planned but they didn't tell me that they brought Ginger and Nicholas along too.When i woke up which was rather late due to the late night mahjong ( hur hur ) mops told me that she brought them along to the vet and there was a person who had pomeranians too and they got along well so she gave them away. (-_-") I was still in bed then and haven't even washed up. The conversation went something like that..

Mops: Hey just now at the vet, there's this person who had a pomeranian and ginger and nic got along well with him lehz..so i gave them away. They are so noisy, aiya got jackie enough le.

Me: Are you serious? *runs out of room and screams "ginger !~ nic !~" -silence- and i start to cry

Mops: yea really. Aiya one dog is enough.

Me: "Ginger !~ Nic !~" i hate you *still crying

Mops: aiya just kidding

Me: I still hate you. Are you serious a not?

Mops: ya actually i really gave them away. You go ask didi lar.

Me: *wailing Kel..where is ginger and nic?

Kel: mama really gave them away

Me: I HATE YOU ! GO AWAY !!!!!!

Mops: aiya just kidding lar..they are at yingying's shop ( my cousin ). go cut hair.

Me: -grabs a towel and continues to cry-
You see the kind of family members i have !!!!!!!! They are in cahoots i tell you !!!!!




And moving on 2 weeks ago..Wenjing, xinyi, cheryl and me went for the sushi making course in school. Take a look at our product..don't drool :)



Can you see the difference in height?
Tallest = Pups
Second tallest= Kops
Middle= Pop
Not so tall= Mops
Not so so tall= me :)

The height variation got me so excited that i wanted to call home to tell mops about it.










  ¶ 3:18 PM

  Once i believed in forever, it was so near.
i thought i could feel it and even touch it with my bare hands.
It was all because of you.


but i woke up and realised it was all a lie.


fairy tales only happen in storybooks..
forever doesn't exist.


and now you promise another girl that forever, no one can ever take her place.
You haven't changed one bit.Seriously..not a single bit. Why do you make such promises when you know you can't keep them. How long is forever..? What is forever to you..? What happened to all the previous "i'll love you forever" ? That forever you promised..you didn't keep it. What makes you think you can keep it this time around?


It makes me angry to see you make such promises..
Do you know that i believed in love, fairy tales and forever.
That's all in the past now.





Forever really doesn't exist.
  ¶ 10:41 PM

  舍得..
要舍才能得。

可是你是否知道我有多么不舍得把你放开?  ¶ 9:45 PM

  我很在意
在你微笑的背后，
隐藏着悲伤。


我很在意
你的快乐很简单，
她却不懂。


我很在意
以往的话题都围绕着她，
现在却绝口不提。


我很在意
她是你生命中的一切，
你的梦却被她摧毁。


我很在意
看见你不断地挣扎，
但始终无法找到你要的答案。


因为我真的很在意你的一切。







想了很久..一直不明白最近为何那么难过。原来是被你的忧伤感染了。  ¶ 9:11 PM

  yet another new member to the family. Meet Jackie :) Love love love..

he has a very sad story to tell..hmms will update you guys next time. I'm going to try to make jackie, nic and ginger the happiest dogs in the world. JACKIE ! :)  ¶ 3:32 PM

  请你不要对我那么好，我会害怕。
害怕自己不再是自己。  ¶ 7:02 PM

  Okay i'm going to try to write this down in a very light hearted manner. I promise i'll try.

Studies.
The amount of assignments that are due for the next two months are crazy ! Just settled Hc 102 so called "mini" assignment this week. And next week, i'll have to face Hc 102 "Not So Mini" assignment, Hw101c
"explainatheoryfromyourdisciplinebuticantfindonesoilltrytobluffmywaythroughasusual" assignment and "好极了"老师 is going to test us with the poems from 诗经. Busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy week. Hc101 and Hc 201 assignments are also due soon. I haven't even thought about HL 809's thesis la ! Wails ! ROARS ! Who said uni life was going to be a breeze ? And all these are on top of all the readings that are piling. Oh my ! Uni life is so suffocating.

But above all these, i think i'll survive. I must survive. For pups and mops, i want to make them proud :)

The other day i went down to Nuh to visit mops and i told her i felt like quitting school and i think she was quite shocked by what i told her. She kept asking me if i was joking and even asked her friend to talk me out of it. I'm quite sick of studying. Its like this is the (let me count) 13th straight year that i'm studying and i just want to have a break. Mops reminded me that once i lose my momentum, i wouldn't feel like studying again. Its ironic that i really feel like withdrawing from school but yet i know i wouldn't simply because, yea simply because. I can't explain it.There isn't exactly a solid reason. I shrugged that thought away on my way back to Ntu. And then i discussed with pups about the financial loan and that was when i really decided that i'm going to be really focued and study. I know mops and pups will be very disappointed if i just drop out like that. I could hear that heartache and pain in his tone over the phone as we discussed about the money issue. Initially i thought that pups could pay for my uni fees without much difficulty but it was after that day that i realised that he still feel the pinch. Its their hard earned money and it really broke my heart that i was being so selfish.But i'm really glad that i talked to them. I feel like i have a reason and the motivation to carry on doing what i'm doing :).

All i want is for people around me to be happy. When they are happy, i'm happy too. So even though i cringe at all the assignments that i'm going to have to complete, i know its all worthwhile.

Kbox.
And recently i keep thinking about Julin and Ros. I miss them so much but i can't seem to find the time to meet up with them. I feel so guilty especially towards Ros. I keep telling her that i'll be able to meet up with her but then i end up having some other stuff. I really really really really really wish i can find the time to catch up with them. I miss working in Kbox. Yes there's was a period of unhappiness but it ended with a happy note. I miss the entire morning crew ( both old and new ), i miss julin.capt ben.james.skinny skinny.guoming. maggie.mr jacky.ai ping. hwee ling. yvonne. I miss making all the phone calls to all the different outlets, i miss getting pissed at the customers, i miss all my regular customers, i miss writing in those books, i miss photocopying stuff, i miss looking at Ros from my counter, i miss gossipping with Julin, i miss laughing with Julin at the counter. Sigh~ i miss that place. Heard that kbmp will be closing down soon because we didn't get the bid. Miss miss miss miss miss miss miss.

Its so hard to maintain relationships with people. Its such an intrigate affair that requires so much effort and once we don't do it well, we end up losing the people that we actually care a lot for. So to the kbmp people, I miss you guys so so much. And Ros..i really really really really really really really hope we can meet up soon.

Laptop.
Don't have to elaborate much for this. Basically my laptop's lan port is spoilt so i'm surviving without a laptop in my hostel. Somebody save me !




So many thoughts and there's only this amount of words that can express how i feel.  ¶ 6:17 PM

  Mental block :(


so much to say but soooooooooo sleepy -_-zZ  ¶ 3:20 AM