Fuun 姐introduced Jia Sheng to me recently.. Seems like i keep getting to know friend of a friend recently. And he did the funniest thing yesterday..


Jia Sheng: "我问你一个问题,你要认真的回答我.."
Me: "Orh"
Jia Sheng: "要很认真"
Me: "huh? 什么事? on 啦"
Jia Sheng: "你的联络号码记号?"
Me:" Huh? 我还以为什么问题.." 我的号码是65813113.."
Jia Sheng:" 我不是说outlet 的啦"

Hahas so after debating and much bargaining...i gave him 7 digits of my number and asked him to guess the last digit himself.



And that silly boy went to send messages to 10 different numbers because the last number could be (0-9) just to see which is my number .. LOL can !  ¶ 6:50 PM

  Happy One Month Anniversay dear <3





if only   ¶ 3:42 AM

  The day before you asked me why don't i ever doubt you.. that's because i love you silly.   ¶ 7:33 AM

  You know i want to blog about happy things and pretend that i'm happy. But i'm not and i really want to make everyone less worried and say that i'm okay.But this is my blog and if i got to pretend even in my blog, then what's the point. As in if you know me well enough..you know i might be sad but i'll be okay eventually. I don't need people to tell me what to do, i'm old enough. What i need is to let everything out, sort my thoughts out and just trust in the Lord. I know everything will be okay but please give me time. So for now please just let me be sad and whine..i'm only human. Everyday can't be perfect and i can't pretend that everyday is perfect.


so my dear friends namely the pentagon, yee, chun, xinyi, darling, becca and en..don't worry. I love you guys loads :)



and for goodness sake, one more time i receive such messages from you telling me what to do..i'm going to change my blog and not let you know my blog address. You act like humans aren't supposed to have any feelings or emotions. And yes i am very pissed >.<

  ¶ 7:18 AM

  这是真实的..

我很不开心,但眼泪不能在眼眶打转

每一天脸带微笑.. 伪装着

我很累，但暂时不能崩溃。




























我一个人应该可以

想起爱过之前

原来的自己

或许那样的天真

我已经回不去

也许我懂得寂寞比相爱容易  ¶ 7:36 AM

  想念你的笑　
想念你的外套
想念你白色袜子　
和你身上的味道
我想念你的吻　和手指淡淡烟草味道
记忆中曾被爱的味道





我不应该但我好想好想你.. 你说你很意外我还记得怎么去你的家，我回答连我自己都有点意外。事实上我当然记得..记得我很兴奋地陪你回家。记得我们走过树林，我说你应该是住在树林里。记得那小小的杂货店..记得那条你牵着我的手过的马路。记得电梯里，你抱我抱得好紧让我觉得好幸福。我都记得.. 我原本不想触碰这一切的回忆,但那天知道你不开心就去找你了。

自己一个走过树林..自己一个过马路..自己一个搭电梯

为了你..我真的把自己挖空了。你知道吗？  ¶ 10:34 AM

  I took a deep breath in search of a familiar smell..
i took a sip from the chrysanthemun tea while the image of you drinking chrysanthemun tea appeared in my head.
i know its silly but i'm doing all sorts of things in search of your shadow.  ¶ 6:40 AM

  from boon lay all the way to tampines.. you were there.
from bedok to bukit batok..i was there.

All the train rides and bus rides were lovely..but i'm glad there's a destination that isn't filled with memories of you. That is to my outlet at downtown east. i'm thankful we did a detour to Kallang so that i don't have any memories of you at downtown east. I don't think i can survive if i had memories of you here in downtown east. It broke my heart to return to kallang the other day. I know you wanted quite badly to accompany to downtown but i'm glad circumstances forbid it. It was good that we alighted at tampines.


Now I'll let someone else create memories for the journey to downtown east.. but deep down i did believe you could be the one to accompany me but thank you..thank you for the memories.




Kelven i thought from that day, you would be around to send me to work everyday. I was wrong. I miss you so much

  ¶ 6:29 AM

  We are all going through a process
We are all growing up
We are all rushing into things
We are all flushed.

this is my conclusion after talking to bestie today. It a "growing up" thing.  ¶ 6:26 AM

  The heart has its reasons which reason knows not of- Blaise Pascal


Something happened.  ¶ 3:01 PM