Amie taught me how to make a friendship band today =) my first in my18 years of existence. I wonder what i was doing while everyone else was learning how to make friendship bands. *scratches head. Makes me feel like i missed out on my teenage years =x and my friends used to tell me that i didn't have much of a childhood too. Oh gosh hahas what do i have then ? Anyway Amie thank you so much for teaching me !!!!!!!!! It was really fun ! You got to teach me another pattern tomorrow okay, you promised =x I am so demanding ! But i really felt accomplished. I remember looking at other girls making friendship bands like its an innate ability to do so and i was so envious. Now i know i can do it too *rolls on the floor.

Thank you so much Amie. Drink more water okay ? and take good care of your health *sticks tongue out.

Recently Nicho-las has become really attached to me. I wonder if its good or bad. He has been diagnosed with an allergy so i had to take care of him throughout the week, ensuring that he takes his medicine and i'll apply the cream on his belly at night. Now he'll wait outside my room when i go to bed. *swoons. such a darling ! and yesterday because i didn't turn on the air con, he ended up in my room and i only realise it when i woke up around 1am. He's so enduring *melts.

=)

Moving on, badminton got 4th for Dragonboat during Seasports Carnival yesterday. We rock !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahas I <3>

Oh and Literature lesson was hilarious today, Ms Lee said " Write this down and i'll smack you" (-_-") She's damn cute. hee hee. She's not the only teacher who gives such random comments. Mrs Ting, Mdm Yang and Ms Lam portray such randomness at times too. what will i do without them.

My life is like a dream, i'm drifting in and out. I feel like the clouds are really near sometimes, just sometimes. I think the clouds must be really fluffy and ticklish cause they make me laugh.

Today marks my life's genesis.

  ¶ 9:00 PM

  An attempt at logic, to reason out everything that's wrong in life. The good things in life don't need an explanation but the downfalls are often covered with the fail attempts at reasoning and unnecessary explanations.

Truth is, nobody wants to know the reason, satisfaction lies in the fact that it happened. Delightful to the human soul are mockery and humiliation. Empathy could not find a place, sympathy felt foolish.

Stupidity must have overcame the weak heart thus i fell in love with a stranger.
and foolishness must have sipped in because i'm still in love with that stranger.

All the world's ugliness must have been engulfed because its found only in one person, me.
Yet sadness left in search for a happier world thus i do not have the capacity to shed tears. Yet it feels so real, i distinctly remember the presence of knives in the walls of my heart.

Pretense- a facade in consideration of other's happiness. it belongs to you
my pretense was there so that you couldn't tell how weak i am.
all i can do is smile when i see you and pretend that i'm alright when all i want to do is to break down the wall between us.




i need to go on a holiday to a remote island. and maybe i'll find you there.  ¶ 6:23 PM

  The feelings aren't gone, in fact, its just getting stronger. Its going haywired actually. Its like a lie i tell myself just to make it through the day. It doesn't help to know about the attention you are getting. I tell myself its unfair that they don't see the you i see. Its unfair that we are seemingly labelled under the same category when what i feel isn't just a mere pretty face. I see another you. Sometimes i wonder if its just a misconception on my part. A you i create out of the shell and i tried to hard to fit you in the picture. Picture perfect. But that's not you and the fact just strikes out. How can anyone know about the depth when you, yourself, fail to comprehend it. An act, a foolish, mindless game? Might be accounted for in this manner but i conclude that its me. I tried too hard. I wonder why i even tried. People tell me that its a blessing in disguise but to me, i know it was a wrong step made. I don't need any sympathy nor comfort from anyone else. your understanding and the ability to co- relate was absent. forced? maybe it was from the very start. A one sided game. Nope, not maybe. I'm sure it was. Its like schoolwork that you hate to do that you never want to touch unless you are forced to. Your background was not the one i pictured, its far better. What i thought you need was not what you really need. Now it has reached a stage of ambiguity.Your needs far exceeds but its not tangible. left me hanging over a cliffhanger. Precarious yet its my fault for venturing. Give me another chance to choose, my choice would not falter. Fate has already decided but my choice would ultimately become a spoilt vote, a mad man's wise words. Yet i will stick to my choice and leave it untouched. Withdrawal signs, probably. The curves from both side represent different things. Evolution left marks on the past but not yours. I think i overestimated the road to never never land.


Jingfang is not happy. You succeeded. Are you happy now?  ¶ 8:50 PM

 






















<3 my musing..  ¶ 6:57 PM

  Badminton Open has been Fab-ulousss ~ A big thank you to Shahirah, Rowena, Si Hui, Henry, Khai, Rizal and Aravin =) I <3 team ="D">

We finished at 5th position. We were this close to getting a medal !!!!!!!!!!! They were going to award medals to the 1st to 4th position. Such a waste ! but hee hee i'm really proud of you guys =D and i'm really glad that we finished it off well with a 4-1 win. Didn't really expect it =x

It has been a wacky week with the badminton people again. I was so high after badminton open ended i was screaming and jumping around the hall. =x Being in the hall brings back many memories of the fun times we had together and of course the sweat and pain we endured.

and there's no doubt about it, that volleyball has an attraction to me.

The end of badminton open gave rise to the * anticipates* -drum rolls- PAO KA LIAO CLUB =x ( It means we do everything =x, every kind of sport and of course every form of nonsense )
hahas so we're going to start with basketball to prepare for basketball open~ Whee.

Went bubbling after that..and henry taught us about pride and dignity *shakes head. xD it has been quite some time since we went bubbling. even the store vendors changed. hmms..change.

Oh well, i'm glad that badminton open is over and its back to studying. Been neglecting my work for far too long.

but then again there's still the netball open and basketball open. *laughs



ps ( i know i'm sure laggy, birthday update coming up soon )



  ¶ 11:42 AM

  I'm drained. All i want is to have a good rest.  ¶ 9:56 PM

  I hope you soared and no matter what, you are already in sync with the wind to me.
let it run through your hair and enjoy the adrenaline..

i prayed for you today

alto salto

  ¶ 9:43 PM

  I'm really disappointed with my Gp results =( like really really really disappointed. Its the first time i scored so low for Paper 1. *faints Paper 2 wasn't really well done either. How am i going to enter my dream course if i continue to score such disgusting grades. I shall attribute it to all the sleeping, stoning, manga-ing, walking around, shopping, complacency, television programmes, Urban section of the Straits times, Lifestyle of the Straits times and this silly device called the computer. How can i do so badly for Gp !!!!!!!!!!!!! *Growls if this is what i'm going to achieve during prelims, i am going to bang my head on the wall and hope that i lose my memory so that i cannot take my A's =x.

This is the worse set of results i ever got since i enter Jc. *Shake head
Down with Common Test and Jingfang !

Econs !!!!!!!!!! It isn't any better and i have been identified as the weaker student. *whines. Oh man this is such a far cry from my Jc 1 results. Econs used to be one of my stronger subjects. So i say down with Marcoeconomics and hail Microeconomics.

Ignore me, that's my weak attempt at pushing away the blame for scoring so horribly.

but seriously econs isn't impossible. it isn't. *hopeful

Ao maths, i think i let Mdm Yang down. She said " all along i thought you were okay so i left you alone and this is the result you produce" *Lightning STRIKES. Oh man, Jingfang do your tutorial !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

History was a miracle =x but i have a feeling Mr Gay was being Lenient. It was my closest to getting an A but i let it slipped by not attempting a 25 marks question. Now History doesn't seem as bad as it used to but then again, i don't think the mark this time round is a veracious reflection of my standard.

but i did put in a lot of effort for my urbanisation and SBQ and i managed to score 23/25 and 22/25 respectively. I'm confused =/

Now all i'm left with are my Literature results. I can already predict it. *stares into emptiness





Its either i start to wake up now or bye bye A's





to the guy who was with cheryl today ( if you get to read this ), I'm so sorry if my words hurt you, i didn't know about your situation. Hope you aren't hurt by what i said. sorry !!!!!!!!!!  ¶ 7:44 PM

  So much to say, so little time.

I seriously need to start mugging !! Been partying around for way too long

3 sleepovers with alcohol and bridge
so many concerts
so many celebrations
i've been sleeping for way too long, time to wake up !

















Itsnotusedtolikehimgirlistilllikehimandthat'swhyeverythingisbleak.  ¶ 6:18 PM

  See how his msn nick evolved this is damn funny

to jingfang: i noe im popular but can u stop nudging mi? just sent you a Nudge!

to Jingfang: but becos im popular u dont have to be jealous. and stop nudging mi just sent you a Nudge!

To Jingfang: just becos ur jealousy overtook all of you, you dont have to be in self denial. and pls stop nudging mi just sent you a Nudge!

To Jingfang: just becos u r so fat, u fell into the sea and whales starting singing "we are family"!. AND PLS STOP NUDGING MI just sent you a Nudge!

To Jingfang:i would not be jealous of an oh-so-fat mermaid that even fishermans mistook as dugong. And stop nudging mi!!! just sent you a Nudge!

To Jingfang:ure such a frightening creature even when fishermen caught u, the net broke and he got stroke, and threw u back just sent you a Nudge!

To Jingfang:ure a hopeless narcastic when others see u, they feel like bashing u. just sent you a Nudge!

To Jingfang: u can just and die and no one would realise u had existed just sent you a Nudge!

To Jingfang:u have serious delusion, no one can cure u. im sorry just sent you a Nudge!

To Jingfang:yee. pui puke. dont murder mi like that just sent you a Nudge!
  ¶ 2:23 PM