feelingveryneedy.dontlikethisfeeling.needattention.
  ¶ 1:35 PM

  Ann lee has been super sick the past few days because he went drinking when he already
had flu last wednesday. To make things worse, he drank more than he should. So even though he gets like 10 hours of sleep everyday, he comes to work like a walking zombie hahahas. This made Benson comment on being responsible of our own health.

Benson: See lar, ask you guys to take care of your health,don't listen to me. Sick still go drinking.
Ann lee ( who only has half of his life left): Who ? who is that person..i will go and slap that person
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS..what the..





and yesterday when i was sharing a fruit cake with Benson..I dropped a piece on my jacket and made a mess..


And Benson's reaction: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS. you eat like a little girl.. nobody's snatching your cake from you, you know.

Me: :) hee hee hee.. got !!!! you lor !


and Benson was still worried that i was not eating yesterday because i had my dinner in the bar without him.. and he was super random and asked you like never eat the whole day hor? I finally know the purpose of him asking when he saw me eating the cake and wanted to eat too. He was like i only have appetite to eat when i see you eat and then after we finished the cake..he proceed to take a "glass" of tidbits to munch on while nagging at me. He was like..can you stop eating? you make me hungry ! Hahahas my stupid in charge.





Oh well it was a very busy day yesterday with the major function and all..but very fulfilling :) Get well soon okay lee lee.  ¶ 12:25 PM

  Hahas was talking to ders in the afternoon and he started the video call..quite fun hahas and he did the bolster thing that was so cute. hahas.. see his stupid face.. :)
  ¶ 4:27 PM

  分开了
但我要谢谢你
你让我看见很多
也真的感觉到爱

我真的不会爱
所以你离开
我很任性
一心想要你开心
但常常弄你难过
对不起

你给我的回忆很美
谢谢：）


你要幸福开心。

  ¶ 1:58 PM

  I can't sleep if i don't say this out..



i miss pedo bear :( so much.  ¶ 9:36 AM

  It has been a horrendous month for baby..
all the crying
the sleepless nights
the heartaches
the emptiness
the loneliness

and I was there to witness him go through all of these. I could only offer him my company and the occasional hugs, hoping the pain will go away. but you know..the pain will only go away when the person who really matters..stops having a place in your heart. I'm just really glad that baby and vic are back together. Treasure each other alright..you two silly lovebirds hahas.




And Seng has been very sweet again.. Seng found out that we had the same offday this week and asked me if i wanted to catch a movie. I thought he was kidding in the beginning but i found out that he actually went to check the attendance book and really wanted to catch a movie. So i was like okay..why not? That was on sunday..he knew i wanted to watch "where got ghost" and so he suggested that we watch "where got ghost". I was smiling and thinking yay..i finally get to watch it after hearing so much about it and i love local films.


but from sunday all the way until yesterday.. the morning shift who knew i was going to watch a movie with seng was telling me that seng actually watched the movie before.They are quite convinced that seng will pang seh me. Then i was like but seng was very sincere about asking me out..then they just give me the funny look. HAHAHAHAS and so yesterday i asked Seng if he watched the show before and the answer was yes..but he said that because i wanted to watch, so yea he does not mind watching it another time with me. So sweet right and he even paid for dinner and the tickets..which was quite unexpected. but i didn't feel comfortable with that and shove the money back to him anyway.


Seng is a very sweet guy, there's no denying. Even Catherine tells me that Seng is a very sensitive and thoughtful guy. Hahas i enjoyed the movie..thanks Seng :) i'm glad to have you as a friend.






Went drinking with the night shift after the movie with Seng..Seng came along too. He didn't want to in the beginning but changed his mind last minute. Faints.. and i'll update about the drinking session tomorrow..need to sleep first. Goodnight world. Good night my random thoughts.  ¶ 9:02 AM

  And so its your birthday..
i didn't forget.. how could i forget?
How could i forget a birthday that i started planning for one year ago ?
What should i do? Where should i bring him? What should i get him...
a year..i thought about this for a year.

I collected the chivas beads for you..for a year.
I was so motivated to push my customers to take hard liquor so that i can have the beads..
but now all i want to do is smash the chivas bottle into pieces.

And today i didn't forget that it's your birthday..
i just chose to ignore it because..
what can i do other than ignore?
You were the one who left me first..
you were the one who said our background were too different..
you were the one who said that i didn't understand you..
you were the one who made me give up..




and yet..
today you were the one who came down from bukit batok to pasir ris
just to see me..
today you were the one who messaged me specially to tell me that it was your birthday and all you wanted was to see me..



some things don't change.. like how you always say such stuff to tug on my heart.
but some things do change. i changed. I gave up on you the day you said that everyone has their little secret..and i'm your secret.
After everything we went through..i was just a secret you were keeping from everyone.
I mean it when i told you to leave me alone.  ¶ 3:00 AM

  Just finished talking to pedo bear and i'm smiling to myself like a little girl who just received her favourite doll...






I feel silly..happy kind of silly hee hee..  ¶ 12:36 PM

  Happy birthday Kelven...
  ¶ 11:25 AM

  The prof who is teaching Hc 212 ( Chinese Folk Literature ) is super cute la !!!!! She kept asking us today if we heard of the folk tunes that she was teaching us. She was so convinced that we heard them before and kept asking after every tune.. For your information, these tunes date all the way back to like tang and song dynasty can !!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahs and so she received silence after asking the same question over and over again for the umpteen times..She finally got a hint THAT WE REALLY DO NOT KNOW HOW THE TUNES SOUND LIKE AND THEY ARE NOT THE LEAST FAMILIAR TO US


and she asked very sadly: " Which year are you guys from??? are you sure the tunes are not familiar. I thought you guys would have heard these tunes before, they are not that old right?"


I tell you ..i was super amused can..hahahahahahs. They are not that old, just ancient.
老师，恕我直言.. 小女真的没有听过唐宋时期之曲子。非逗师也。

  ¶ 3:04 AM

  Today is the last day for add drop and...


I REALLY WANT TO DROP HC 211 ( TANG POETRY ) BECAUSE PROF HO IS TEACHING IT. SOMEBODY SAVE ME. I AM FRUSTRATED. I CANNOT FIND ANY COURSE TO REPLACE IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY DON'T WANT TO SEE PROF HO *SAD



Oh well so far..

I got
Hc 204 (Lit of yuan, ming and qing)
Hc 211 (Tang poetry) somebody save me
Hc 212 (Chinese folk literature)
Hc 232 ( Division and integration, from chun to wud)
Mb 107 (Fundamentals of business law)

so now my schedule is back to 5 days week again..instead of 4 days week. BOOOOOOOOOOOO. oh and i dropped Hl 101 ( lntro to eng literature ) for Mb 107 ( Fundamentals of business law ) because i need Mb 107 for my General Elective more than Hl 101 as my Unrestricted Elective and their timings clash. Another sobs.. i really enjoyed going for Hl 101 because prof Angela makes stupid jokes.


Case 1
Prof Angela: Now let's talk about (makes the sound) * DENG DENG DENG.. PLAGIARISM !!!
Me sitting in the lecture theatre, thinking in my head: DRAMA SIA
Prof Angela: Its not like a real crime but its still considered as literary theft. Of course we would not shame you in public but yea you ought to feel shamed anyway
Me: *nods nods



Case 2
Prof Angela: *rambles on how to do quotations and citings for the papers, showing us the different examples with powerpoint slides she made. Suddenly she exclaims...

BAD MLA ( refers to modern language association and they are the ones who came up with the standard for quotations and citing for essays)...NO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't put the page number. Bad MLA, how could i forget !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *raise hand in the sky.

Everyone in the lecture theatre: (-_-")



Case 3

Prof Angela tries to explain the importance of having good MLA in essays

Prof Angela: You know MLA..they secretly rule the world ! That's why you guys better follow the standards set by them.
Me: Huh? rule the world?

Case 4

Prof Angela on expressing our own thoughts

Prof Angela: No matter how stupid and ridiculous your thoughts are ..just write them down. At least they are yours..
Me: *hmms...

i am going to miss taking Hl 101. So after 2 weeks of add drop and tentative schedules.. School is finally going to REALLY OFFICIALLY START.



有如往常，新的学期请大家多多指教 ：）
靖方

  ¶ 3:32 PM

  Time flies..

kops is going to ord in like 2 weeks. WOW.. I didn't realise until we were chatting about uni life just now. We are all growing up.

  ¶ 3:20 PM

  s3oW says:
yo
i see u online this month
more frequently than whole of this year
=)

*Andie says:
hee hee hee
because erm..
there's a motivation to come online
hahas


s3oW says:
haha
why?
whats e motivation?
i know
online quizzess!!!!!
hahahahaha




(-_-")

and to pedo bear..remember the first time we chat on msn, i told you i don't go on msn very often. I was very serious. People can calculate with your ten fingers the number of times i come online before i met you. You are the reason why i go on msn..so that maybe you will also be online and i will have more time to talk to you :) You're the reason..  ¶ 1:29 PM

  我很在意你的一切
但你在意的
不是我..  ¶ 10:41 AM

  我, 很简单的就是没安全感..


安全感不是说说就会有了
那是一种感觉
让我可以很放心的卸下我的防备

难道你到现在还不明白吗?
你给我的感觉是..
我是我们感情的
第三者..



泪, 需要休息
心, 需要安慰
为什么不哄我?  ¶ 10:33 AM

  必

将心思牢放在书圈与官场

非

胡思乱想
无益处  ¶ 8:43 AM

 

"Thanks for the adventure. Now go have a new one." Love, Ellie

my favourite part from "up".. *sniff sniff

  ¶ 4:17 PM

  Juno MacGuff: I’m losing my faith in humanity.

Mac MacGuff: Think you can narrow it down for me?

Juno MacGuff: I guess I wonder sometimes if people ever stay together for good.

Mac MacGuff: You mean like couples?

Juno MacGuff: Yeah, like people in love.

Mac MacGuff: Are you having boy troubles? I gotta be honest; I don’t much approve of dating in your condition, ’cause well… that’s kind of messed up.

Juno MacGuff: Dad, no!

Mac MacGuff: Well, it’s kind of skanky. Isn’t that what you girls call it? Skanky? Skeevy?

Juno MacGuff: Please stop now.

Mac MacGuff: [persisting] Tore up from the floor up?

Juno MacGuff: Dad, it’s not about that. I just need to know if it’s possible for two people to stay
happy together forever, or at least for a few years.

Mac MacGuff: It’s not easy, that’s for sure. Now, I may not have the best track record in the
world, but I have been with your stepmother for 10 years now and I’m proud to say that we’re
very happy.

[Juno nods]

Mac MacGuff: In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for
exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right
person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That’s the kind of person that’s worth sticking
with.

Juno MacGuff: I sort of already have.

Mac MacGuff: Well, of course! You’re old D-A-D! You know I’ll always be there to love and
support you no matter what kind of pickle you’re in… Obviously

[nods to her belly]

Juno MacGuff: I need to go out somewhere just for a little while. I don’t have any homework
and I swear I’ll be back by ten.

Mac MacGuff: You were talking about me right?





don't love me for who i can be, who you want me to be. love me for who i am. will you?  ¶ 12:49 PM

  Yesterday Benson said:

" If I really like the person, i will want to see the person everyday. I will make the effort to meet up with her."




sigh. don't like to talk to Benson.  ¶ 11:59 AM

  Its weird that i'm fine when other people don't pick up my call..cause black and fat fat asked me to give them wake up call today cause we went drinking yesterday and they were afraid that they won't be able to wake up on time.

I called black like 9 times.
I called fat fat like 14 times and fat is still sleeping. HAHAHAHAS wake up wake up fat.
but i don't feel angry or upset when they don't answer my call.




but when pedo bear doesn't answer my phone call after i called him like once or twice, i get upset :( then i realised how special pedo bear means to me <3 but it also makes me feel that i'm too sensitive when such stuff happen. *shake head.




//edit fat fat wake up already hahahas  ¶ 4:18 PM

 
  ¶ 4:15 PM

  Baby says i'm getting on his nerve and emoing...

and he says why you want to drink beer drink beer...WAHAHAHAHHAS i think this is very funny =x  ¶ 12:26 AM

  I know the guys won't let me drink later but..






I hope i get drunk. sigh. they want to order 14 jugs of beer and none for fang fang.
fang can only drink mojito ribena. Oh well i will steal a few mugs when they are busy *BEAMS. sigh again.  ¶ 12:24 AM

  Baby says being nobel is not very nice..




hmms..  ¶ 12:24 AM

  I will stop
stop questioning
when everything ends..
it will hurt.
but i'll be brave.
i'll try to be brave..
if its still worth anything
the memories are for me to keep.


at least one of us will be happy. that's enough.
I always wanted you to be happy. really.
  ¶ 10:07 PM

  There's a new girl at work recently under my department and it hasn't been the easiest thing to teach her but still i can tell that she's a very bright girl and quite suitable for the job because she's quite witty. However she is very opinionated so she likes to argue when i tell her stuff and it makes my blood boils !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i still believe in her.



when i look at her and the mistakes she makes..i see myself 2 years back when Julin was in charge of teaching me. No matter how many stupid mistakes i make, Julin will always be around to help me solve it. Of course she will tell me off but after that, she always have my back. The reason?

If recepts don't help one another then who's going to help us? I will always remember this.


So no matter what.. i will always be behind the new recept and believe in her. I will be a good mentor :) i promise to try real hard. I miss Julin :(
especially when everything at work is such a mess.  ¶ 9:40 PM

  Seng was very sweet today :)

Seng bought lunch for me and i told him that i wanted to have mix vegetable rice with meat and egg and vegetables. He came back and told me that the store only had steam egg and so he didn't get any for me as he thought i don't eat steam egg. I was like " SENG !!! I do eat steam egg" and he started to laugh and promised me that he will remember the next time he buys lunch for me. So i walked away sadly back to my reception to eat my lunch without egg.

Within like 5 mins, i received a call from seng and
he was like: " Don't eat the rice yet okay ?"
I was like: " why? i already started eating"
and he was like:"don't ask, you will know very soon." and continued with his usual laughter.

the next thing i know, seng appeared and disappeared with my lunch. and guess what... :) seng went to our bar to cook an egg just for me. Touched and very happy. Its simple things like that that make my day *BEAMS BEAMS BEAMS


come to think of it..Seng has always been very sweet. I remember the time when i didn't want to eat and he was like:" YOU MUST EAT !!!!!! i bought a new packet of instant noodles. You must try okay? I cook for you..confirm very nice" Hahahas and so in the end, i ate the noodles even though i wasn't hungry.

one happy incident to bright up my day.  ¶ 9:17 PM

  Just finished talking to pedo bear.. :)





And i'm feeling all warm and fuzzy and loved. <3  ¶ 7:03 AM

 










  ¶ 11:34 PM

  Mini monster always make pedo bear angry :(
but pedo bear always make mini monster happy..


mini monster is guilty..and promise to be nice to pedo bear okay.
Will pedo bear still love mini monster =x  ¶ 8:14 PM

  Had a good talk with Mr Benson yesterday and he made me realise a lot of things.. things that i once knew but have forgotten as a receptionist. Its nice to have someone to remind you of simple stuff that you take for granted.


feels like i found a new direction again when everything in wrong seems stagnant. Happy  ¶ 7:49 PM