The stars are far away

Outlet's going to be in a mess very soon..i can literally feel it. Got to brace myself for it.. as long as the reception area remains safe. That's all i ask for. Office politics is very scary and very intense. People come and go, this is a norm. Got to get used to it or am i already used to it. I miss ben so much. I used to feel very safe under ben. Sigh.
早上的期待, 晚上落空..
是应该习惯这种感觉
不是吗?
期望越高, 跌得越痛
记得你曾经告诉自己
不允许自己有希望
就不会受伤了..
你忘了吗?
真的很期待
选了最喜欢的衣服
花了妆
喷了最心爱的香水
穿了matching高根鞋
最后只是站在镜子前
独自欣赏
为什么那么笨..
在巴士掉泪
可耻..
我很容易遗忘所以请别把我的文字放在心上.. 我会好好的..

Bestie is far away in Europe now.. have fun, be safe and come home soon.
最近一直徘徊在开心与不开心之间, 也开始怀疑我想要什么..
一切好象一团糟
已往单纯的快乐不见了..
我会好好的..一定会真的开心起来吧.
想得太多
又多愁善感
靖方, 你好烦..

feeling..insecure. Sigh
"When they discover the center of the universe, a lot of people will be disappointed to discover they are not it"Bernard Bailey
I don't like it when we get into a fight...
because i know i made you angry again.
So sweetie..i just want you to know
I never mean to make you upset or angry
I love to see you smile :) and laugh at my stupid actions.
I know you are the one who makes the effort to pacify me whenever we argue..
so sweetie..thanks for giving in and always making everything okay.
I'm really glad to have you around. I love you sweetie <3
i'm really thankful that you always give in to mini monster.
老实说..
我怕..怕会伤害到你也伤害自己
悲伤的情绪写作果然比较凄美
And so the story goes..
We will always miss the one who treats us badly
and never appreciate the one who showers us with love.
Its true, isn't it..
After 1 year 2 months and 14 days of not taking mc from work, my body finally gave way and i am being nursed back to health by baby. I have been sick since sunday and staying with baby ever since. and yesterday when i was feeling slightly better, baby complaint about having headache and flu. oOps..sorry baby. So anyway I learnt from this mini episode that self medication doesn't really work ! I refused to visit the doctor in the beginning and relied on like cough syrup and all. Doesn't work :( even panadol didn't work for my fever. My my.. so i decided the doctor's the way to go. So people, don't be stubborn, when you are sick please go visit a doctor !!!!!!!!!!!!
don't be like someone, drink what miracle water then never share with me. *Sticks tongue out
What am i doing now??
I'm waiting for someone very special to bring me out :D *taps feet

Let's blog about happy things.. :)
The other day baby came home and he bought chicken rice for me. I was lazing on the bed and i refuse to come down. Then he said "If you don't come down now, the chicken rice will become duck rice."
and baby promise to bring me to eat the junk food just a few days ago :) He remembered. Its been like two years and we haven't gone to the store.
and bestie, baby says you are supposed to watch dvd with him..Hur hur..!!!!! He's waiting !!!!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday i suddenly remember the pain
the pain of having expectations
the torture of thinking about someone
the tears that flow
when the person leaves..
and then i'm all alone. It scares me.
Would you rather be alone but your heart remain guarded
or would you rather give your heart away..
Yesterday i made Ann Lee angry and was like feeling super guilty about it..but Lee lee was still very sweet and made me smile :) even when i didn't apologize to him. Thanks lee lee..
Thanks for going for supper with me till 6am
and waking at 2 plus again to watch ice age 3 with me.
WHEE !~
and something magical happened yesterday <3>
我不敢告诉你
我真的怕
不是怕见你
是害怕见了你
你会不见..
不想改变我们现在的关系..有错吗?
很遗憾..
你只有在醉时才说我最好
紧紧的抱着我..
清醒了..
我们又回到原点
DD.. i guess i have to understand.
Just came home from cine..this is like 3rd time in a week we whizzed off to cine after work. We are officially addicted !!!!!!!!!! and i simply love laughing ourselves silly with the night shift <3
Good night world..