Its not that hard to remember that day. I was crying very badly and somehow i couldn't stop the tears from flowing. I told myself i shouldn't call you now. Nope, not now..not until i stopped crying. I won't want you to hear me cry over the phone but it still happened. I did wait for the tears to stop before i call. I ask ya if you were free and you told me your recept would only come at 2pm :) I told ya to tell me a joke and you sounded puzzle. Hahas yes a joke because i wanted to hear a joke to stop the tears from coming. Yet your voice just made me cry. I don't know why, i just started crying. I really didn't want you to hear my awful sobbings but in the end you still did. I hung up and told ya i'll call you in awhile. You sounded really worried and asked me what's wrong. I could hear the anxiousness in your tone and i was touched. Its always this concern in your voice that makes me so attracted to you cause i know you truly cared. I called you a second time and this time round,i had to stifle the tears. I know i wouldn't cry this time round but you told me today was your last day and the tears came rolling down again. This time round for another reason. I was crying and panicking that you were leaving cause i thought it was your last day and i didn't know how to cope without you. Silly you, it was merely transfering outlets. You should have said so earlier then i wouldn't cry so badly. But then again, looking back, i know you were the rightful owner to the tears that i shed. because when you said last day at paradiz and that you were going to marina square, i thought you were still be around to watch out for me. You didn't tell me that you were going to leave me like now. You ask me if you could call me from suntec city the next day and i smiled to myself. Those were the little things you used to do that touched my heart but you're really gone now. Things over at my workplace are improving and i'm getting used to the system but i wouldn't mind giving up all this and return to the days when i was still struggling with work but with you to comfort me. Yes, i know my angel's angel was the reason why you left. If i could, i wouldn't have pushed you away time after time. I miss you and each time i think about you, i'll still cry cause you mean so much to me.


jeffreyicantseemtosaygoodbye  ¶ 10:23 PM

  Sometimes i really wish i could start all over again. Each day i go back to work with this thought running through my head. I know its not practical to even think about rewinding time to restart everything but its really tempting. You would too right, if you were me? Maybe if i had the ability to do so, i would be happy. maybe i wouldn't.Apparently everything seems to come with a price. There must be a catch to get the ability to start over again but i guess i'll be willing to forsake. Well its all in the imagination.


Anyway i've been gossiping like in excess. Someone puh-lease remind me not to do that anymore . And actually there isn't any secret in this world. People make believe that their secrets stay as secrets.


334--> you never should have pampered me if you decided to leave from the beginning
850--> i'm sorry that i'm always so unreasonable. but i'm only like that when i face ya, tell me how? sometimes emotions do run high
L--> maybe one day, i'll tell you the impact you left on me. maybe one day




Gossip Folks ( NO MORE~)  ¶ 9:40 PM

  Sometimes i really wish i could start all over again. Each day i go back to work with this thought running through my head. I know its not practical to even think about rewinding time to restart everything but its really tempting. You would too right, if you were me? Maybe if i had the ability to do so, i would be happy. maybe i wouldn't.Apparently everything seems to come with a price. There must be a catch to get the ability to start over again but i guess i'll be willing to forsake. Well its all in the imagination.


Anyway i've been gossiping like in excess. Someone puh-lease remind me not to do that anymore . And actually there isn't any secret in this world. People make believe that their secrets stay as secrets.


334--> you never should have pampered me if you decided to leave from the beginning
850--> i'm sorry that i'm always so unreasonable. but i'm only like that when i face ya, tell me how? sometimes emotions do run high
L--> maybe one day, i'll tell you the impact you left on me. maybe one day




Gossip Folks ( NO MORE~)  ¶ 9:40 PM

  I'm getting used to the pace of work but i can't help wishing that i'll force myself to wake up when the alarm clock sounds every morning. I want to be like Jason Bernard and get one of the highest tips each month *GREEDY !~ i can even go early and sit on my seat and stare into oblivion. WAHAHAHAHS. No more taxi rides for me starting from tomorrow, all the cab fares shall go into my shopping spree. I take at least 5 taxi rides each month which makes it $50 a month. That's a lot can ! i can buy at least 2-3 pairs of shoes ! *GROWLS.. I keep going back to sleep after the alarm clock sounds.."5 mins..just 5 mins" and it becomes half an hour. TADA Jiingfang is late ! and it costs to be late can. No tips after 1045am, Deduct $10 after 11am and $50 plus one warning letter after 1130am. Absolutely painful. Hence in order to maximize my pay and money for shopping, Jiingfang must sacrifice her BEAUTY sleep and wake up earlier. Yawns~

Julin's back from C8 after 3 days today and i'm filled with mixed emotions. I was looking forward to her return cause i really missed her and yet when Julin's around, Aiping and me will feel the pressure to perform. Its like hard to break the barrier. The senior, junior barrier. I treat Julin as a friend but yet i feel quite pressurized when she's around. When we go out after work and stuff, its okay and we can go crazy but its just different during work. I realised that i actually feel more at ease working in front of Captain Benjamin. I know he's strict and all but hahas i just don't feel the stress. To add to that, Julin picked up some stuff from C8 and yep she's going to pass it down to us so its a whole new learning process. Working at kbox is really not much different from studying. Memorize charges, memorize promotions (8 ongoing promotions concurrently), theme nights, 13 other outlets no, around the world and the lists goes on but hahas it also showed me the attitude i should adopt towards my studies. So its not a bad thing. At least i'm pretty good at memorizing stuff after working at kbox. Anyway ya i got to adopt a whole new system again (not totally new) but i got to change my style again after Julin's return from C8. A little reluctant, a little stunned by the new thingie and Julin's new found enthusiasm to push Buffet but yea got to sort it out by tomorrow. I still want to be a super recept like Ah Ju =pPppPp

2 days of Captain 850 taking the morning shift, 3 days of Julin at C8, 3 days of Aiping taking the night shift which resulted in much enlightenment. Me and Aiping's attitude towards the 2 captains are like north pole vs south pole and Julin's the neutral one. Aiping and Captain 850 didn't start out right. Captain L and me didn't start out any better either. Its none of our faults. Its nobody's fault. Its just meant to be like that. Captain L and me just have nothing to share with each other. Aiping doesn't share Captain's 850's humour. Me and Aiping should really change shift, we'll be much happier like that. Hahas human relationships are just strange. First impressions really do count. I'm happy with Captain 850 and Aiping's happier with Captain L. Its ironic that i have to face Captain L most of the time and Aiping, Captain 850. Oh well Aiping, though it was hell of an awkward situation with both the captians around-Captain 850 beside me and Captain L talking to ya leaving both of us speechless but well it will work out. Can we stop calling him 850. =x i'll start calling L, ling peh if you continue ar =pPp in short..let's just stick with recepts rocks :) Anyway captains up till now are giving me quite a headache. First was L who made me cry, 334 who left my hanging up till now, then kk who is amusing and makes me laugh but flirty but then 850. GROWLS..my stand: Steer clear of the captains and aim to be ms goody two shoe recept.

Putting work aside, Ntu's application granted ! but i'm still contemplating if i should accept. I'm really afraid that i'm not cut out for it and my only interest translation is just a minor. On a happier note..

Hahas Kian Ping's reaction after i told him that i got into NTU.
s3oW - yeh! someone got into NTU says:see my nick

s3oW - yeh! someone got into NTU says:haha

Jiingfang *childish says:hahas

s3oW - yeh! someone got into NTU says:talk to u again -)

Jiingfang *childish says:crazy haven't accept yet silly

Jiingfang *childish says:silly boy..go study your maths. Jia you

Jiingfang *childish says:=)


I want to remember this moment and the smile i have on my face now for life :)






If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know I'd never let you go.

Jeffreybutidontevenhavethatchancetotellyouhowspecialyouare
  ¶ 10:03 PM

  All the unsent messages in my phone..
All the unfinished phone calls
All the things i didn't tell you
All the memories you gave me, stagnant
All the times you cared, gone.
So many things i would like to share with you
So many sleepless nights
i wished i had the chance to just tell you what's in my heart
but you're no where near


everything's probably gonna stay this way and
you wouldn't even notice if i'm gone. That's why it hurts so bad.
becausejeffreyithinkireallylikeyou  ¶ 11:54 PM

  Blush


A certain someone makes me blush but he doesn't know it
Small chats and constant fun bickering sessions
I was just glad that you were around.
The jokes we shared and all the laughters
thinking about the silly things we just said
I thought you were a really great friend.
You always said i was a small girl living in a big house
well i have big dreams too.
I could tell you had big dreams but didn't tell you that i'll support you..
i simply laughed to myself.
I asked myself why i started blushing when you touched me
because i knew it was a friendly kind of touch. nothing much.
but everything was spinning and i was sure the temperature was rising.
you are still a great friend.
You asked me to play the staring game with you, for once we saw eye to eye
i couldn't stop laughing at how silly you looked
my heart was racing so fast.
and then you offered me a drink and we shared it, i felt weird but knew i was thinking too much
and then you ask me how would i feel, if you told me you had feelings for me
I looked away and told you, you're crazy
because we both know its not true.
I still blush when you touch me and i know its different from the others
dear friend, thanks for the times you brightened my day.
I'm glad you remembered the tiny details and that's all that i ask of you

Captain Benjamin, thanks =) i was glad you remembered about the cake.

  ¶ 11:22 PM

  Its my offday today =) and yes jiingfang loves her offdays. I'm thinking of clearing my RPH soon cause there's this yearning to go on a holiday. I want to visit some european country, japan sounds fine too and thailand seems like a good spot to go shopping and i love china for their food. Dilemma, i'll just leave it up to the parents hahas. Its always nice to go on a holiday with them cause everything is provided for and yes i mean everything *BEAMS so yea maybe, just maybe i'll be clearing my RPH soon just to go on a holiday. whee~

Went for lunch cum movie cum shopping session with Julin today. *Fun..Julin woke up early just for me. I'm so touched. She was on night duty the previous night and went home around 2am but still she kept her promise and met me. Whee pee~ Julin rocks big big time. We wanted to have Ajisen but decided to have Seoul Garden instead. Such pigs *oink oink. Hahas and Julin's really sweet, she took cooked food and we actually shared it. This is like the first time i went to Seoul Garden and ended up sharing food with someone. Quite funny but nevertheless still sweet. Its quite a pity that we didn't manage to watch "200 pounds beauty" but "meet the robinsons" was just as good and both of us were actually on the bringe of crying at the end of the movie. Hahas such losers right. EMO CAN ! but didn't regret watching it. BUT HOR JULIN AR, I STILL WANT TO WATCH "200 pounds beauty" *sulks. Oh and the most exciting part was we bought 3 pairs of shoes each. *EVIL LAUGHS. Burned a hole in my pocket~ and yes we managed to get a Charles and Keith's privilege card and its under my name =) What a nice offday right. oh and i got to see a previous recept. =x gossip gossip gossip.


And now you guys know why i love Julin


Dinner was cool too ~ Daddy brought the whole family to maraku for dinner. Drools. Love the tempura there *i'm like darn fat can..all the good food. Was looking forward to the sea urchin but it was rather disappointing. Anyway its the company that counts and kor, please watch your sugar level next time. You silly big baby. Here's a little conservation between my family and the waiter at maraku.

Me: " Sorry, can i have this ?" *points to a drink at the menu
Waiter:" Oh it contains alcohol"
Me:"Oh..erm"
Mummy:"She's allergic to alcohol"
Daddy:"She gets drunk easily"
Maid:"later fang fang cannot go home *and laughs"
Me:"Erm i'll have the orange juice"
Maid:"Awwwww..so sad fang fang take orange juice ar"
Waiter:*Laughs"
Me:(-_-")

and when the waiter leaves

Kel:"Jie *psst i think the waiter tells you that it contains alcohol because you don't look 18"
Me:"Excuse me ? (>_<)


oh well, doesn't matter i still love them~ Praise the Lord for putting me in this family =)


Its sad to know that even Siya cares more about me as compared to you. I'm utterly speechless.
learningtoletgobecauseidontwanttocryeverytimeiseeyouandhertogether
  ¶ 10:22 PM

  I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude
bright no matter how gray the day may appear.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.

I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.  ¶ 3:43 PM

  Isa 50:4-5
The Lord GOD has given me the tongue of those who are taught, that I may know how to sustain with a word him who is weary. Morning by morning he awakens; he awakens my ear to hear as those who are taught. The Lord GOD has opened my ear, and I was not rebellious; I turned not backward.


i know not why but i'm very attracted to this verse. Praise the Lord  ¶ 2:15 PM

  Offday's here and i have tonnnnnnnneeeeesssss of things to do. The list is like never ending.


1) Tidy up my room. Its already insect infested
2) Finish reading all my unread manga and books
3) Settle my university application ( There's one minor part that's not finished )
4) Shopping !!! =D
5) Collect my tuition fee from 2 of my previous students. Its like LONG LONG overdue
6) Clear my email which has like over 500 mails (haven't cleared my mail since September last year =x )



Anyway i guess many are lost about my job cause i keep grumbling about the people there but i never once mention my workplace. HAHAHAHAS. I'm working as a receptionist at Kbox marina parade and guess what i like my job a lot because its not boring at all ! whee~ and now that i'm getting the hang of it and the people are nicer to me, i really enjoy going to work. Its quite sad though that Captain Stanley and me would always have this unpleasant memory in our heads and i guess we wouldn't be able to cross this barrier. He doesn't have to tell me straight in the face, i can feel it. I guess when i first came i did create a lot of problems for him and made his job really tough. I'm really sorry about that. Its quite funny cause i always get jealous when he is able to treat the new comers nicely and even joke with 'em but its a totally different case for me. He took so much effort to teach yingying. I wished there was someone like him to teach me when i first came. Julin was a good teacher but captain Stanley was super elaborate with yingying and its good. It increases her product knowledge. And i realised recently that the people at kbox are quite double standard, i don't know why but hahas. =x I realised its because of that that makes work really hard. You say one thing and do another how are new comers going to learn properly? but overall its a good experience and i met really nice people and saw my ugly side of human, quite an eye opener.  ¶ 12:05 PM