The stars are far away: February 2007

The stars are far away

Monday, February 26, 2007

Be angry, and do not sin.
Meditate within your heart on your bed and be still.
Selah
Offer the sacrifices of righteousnesss, And put your trust in the Lord.

Psalm 4:4-5

Lord Jesus, thank you for your words and for answering my prayers. May i be a testimony for you in my workplace.

¶ 7:37 PM

Saturday, February 24, 2007

SHIT julin just informed me that she's clearing her leave from next week, friday all the way till wednesday. I smell doomsday already. oh and it was captain benjamin in the morning shift today, you can imagine how happy i was. Hahas he's nice to be around with. =D oh and i realised i got to be more accurate with my words and housepour includes volka, bourbon, barcadi, gin and tequila. remember remember. hahas..other than that job has been good today. Love Julin and huiling lots.

Oh and Manager Eric is really cute. I want to pinch him xD but i can't do it =(. JU ZAI ! hahas

imthisclosetohanginguponyou

¶ 10:27 PM

Friday, February 23, 2007

No surprises today.i got to start getting used to it. shouldn't have let my defences down cause this time round i'm going to get hurt again. Now i'm lost and i feel like hanging up on you. maybe we should just stop talking. its better like that. just to let you know i think i should be able to survive without you. I did for the past 2 days anyway. *334

¶ 10:24 PM

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Julin's back today *HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.She was scheduled in the morning shift with me*rocks man. not even afternoon shift can.hahas whee whee whee so we knocked off together and we went out for dinner after that. wahahahahahahas really enjoyed her company. did a little shopping, walked around gossip =x and here's something random i seriously think that captain benjamin is nice. Anyway i'm right, with Julin around nobody dared to bully me. Everything was back to normal. Stand bys and cutting of rooms. Seriously, i used to think the morning crew was pretty efficient but now i realised they are just running on a thin thread of pride. shakes head. its really hard when people tells you what to do and stuff. even worse when you are supposed to be the decision maker and people don't accept it. The things that Julin does when carried out by me, is questioned and doubted all the time. Excuse me how then am i supposed to learn. Julin and even Mr Jacky understands that it takes time but the rest don't. They think that one month is like so so so so long. You think i don't think? For your information, i think much more than you guys could have ever thought. Hahas okay a little exaggerating but yea i do think. i think alot in fact. and i don't know when you will see it. and till that day, i'll continue to try really hard to prove to you that i'm right.

Your recept is back today, no phonecalls whatsoever. makes me wonder if i'm really just someone you call when you are bored. Tomorrow's your offday..i wonder if there's any surprise. Gave you a surprise on my offday didn't i ? =pPp quite siannified. you know i don't expect much, i myself know that its not right. But then i hope i'm right about you. don't keep me hanging like that.

334.. because it was so hard to envision happy thoughts and remain optimistic today.

¶ 10:38 PM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Seriously i'm quite frustrated over my work. I seriously don't like the morning crew. Maybe its because they are all girls so its harder to get along with 'em. I'm not being mean or anything but you know girls tend to bitch around and backstab one another more and they feel that there's nothing wrong. Being a newbie there, i've seen how they backstabbed one another and yet still feel that they are best friends. Pretty revolting but what can i do? I find it easier to work with the night crew even though most of the time i work with 'em for approximately an hour during the transition period. They keep asking me to ask them if i don't understand but the thing is when i ask, can they even answer my question properly ? its okay if they are insincere and their attitude is horrible but they rarely answer my question. Its pretty obvious that they are bullying me. First when you want me to cut rooms, you say it properly through the microphone. Don't expect me to understand when you don't even announce properly. and when was it okay not to reply my standby? The night crew will never do that. You don't want me to repeat my stand by then reply it. Seriously very very pissed. And buffet..excuse me? room 38 is damn far to give to buffet customers can? and you dare to tell me i always make it very troublesome for you guys. When was it okay to give 38 for buffet when there are rooms available. Julin will definitely support me. I hate it whenever Julin is not around cause the morning crew always bully me when Julin isn't around. Julin is the one who is really teaching me properly. I admit that i do create mistakes but who doesn't? I really enjoyed it when Captain Benjamin was around for nearly a week because he's more sincere and he teaches. Ironically they backstabbed him too and yet when he took over for that period, they acted like best friends too. Really sick. I really miss having Julin around, its like i have to fend for myself without her around. That's why i told Julin not to clear her leave =x. They keep saying i've been there for a month already..hello? you guys also know its been a month. I hate it when they doubt my choice. I really envy Huiling cause the night crew is so much nicer and easier to get along. If its not for Jeffrey, i won't have any motivation to continue with this job. Told him today that i feel like quitting and he told me so soon? hahas and he told me that he don't in give his server stand by time. Super funny. Everytime i look at Stanley giving briefing and stuff and he says well done server, i feel like saying really? well done when they don't annouce clearly through the mic, well done when they don't reply stand by? i don't understand them at all. and it makes me think if Jeffrey is like that too. But yea i'm not going to quit so soon, i'm going to prove to them that i can do it. really really sick of the morning crew. Jeffrey suggested that i transfer to paradiz, super diaoz hahas but i'm going to stick on and show them. *GROWLS

¶ 9:36 PM

Saturday, February 17, 2007

i have so much to tell you and i'm so tempted to ask you not to leave. When you call, it makes my day a lot easier to bear. Everytime you say you'll call back,i really hope you do. and all the times you kept your promise, my day's completed. I have so much to tell you but for now i'll stick with..i
hope you'll stay though its selfish but yes..i hope you'll stay for my sake.

¶ 10:08 PM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

"I thought that by telling myself and everyone else that I hated you.
That sooner or later I would come to believe it.
But I now realize that by lying, it makes me want you even more."

how apt..

¶ 12:39 AM

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Screwed up my previous blogskin so here i am with a simple customised one. Shalalalala~ Anyway just wanted to a big thank you to Julin, my senior receptionist. Its really comforting to have someone who believes and trusts you when the whole world is in doubt of your capabilities. Its even more comforting to know that you accept my mistakes and guide me along instead of looking down on me. It gives me strength to prove to others that i can do it. Julin.. Thank you =) from the bottom of my heart. you made everything easier to bear and even though you probably won't get to see this post. Thank you for opening up, listening and caring. You're the best =)

I want to be a super receptionist like JULIN =D !

all you need is one person who believes in you to regain the faith that the end of the tunnel is really near.

¶ 11:32 PM

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