Was really pissed off today. If you always think that the things you are involved in are always THE BEST THE TOUGHEST THE MOST INTERESTING and everyone else are doing crap then please~ you can go and erect a mountain of your own and live there. Seriously it makes me very sick to have to do stuff for you and you don't even seem to be appreciative. Do you think i have a lot of time in my hands? Please do not assume that you are the only one WHO IS SO BUSY AND THE REST OF THE WORLD IS JUST IDLING AND ONLY YOU ARE DOING WORK. If you can't even keep your own stuff and have to trouble people then i have an advice for you: THROW THEM AWAY ! A thing that weighs less than a gram and you cannot even be bothered to hold it yourself. These are just the minor things that make me very piss. For your information, i might look like i'm very free but i'm not ! i have things to do too. The only reason why i don't mind helping out is because you are a friend. i don't mind sacrificing a little time for my friends but if you are going to give me that attitude and ask me to oh just make myself comfortable at a corner, you might as well just go and fly a kite. Seriously please i wasn't even close to keen about doing it okay. PISSED ! And yes, no matter what you do, they are all trash in my eyes because truth is you are just not cut out for it.


just ignore me ..i think its that time of the month


  ¶ 6:12 PM

  I realised that i'm not focused and that's why i don't see myself progressing. In my head, i plan everything out so nicely but i never seem to be able to complete anything. For the past few years, i always tell myself i'll do this, i 'll do that but i never really get down to doing it. It seems like i've been living each day by lying to myself. Hahas is this the art of being positive? because i would like to think that i'm positive. This thought struck me really hard today. I asked myself why is it that i never managed to follow through anything? I keep getting stuck and distracted. Its time i start to plan my life because very soon i got to learn to really plan my own life. Maybe now i can still depend on pups and mops to support me financially and i can scrape through my studies with minimum studying but i know its not going to bring me anywhere. It scares me sometimes to think about such stuff because i really don't want to grow up but hahas i am..each day.

And i really hate it when people judge other people when they themselves are not perfect. Well nobody is perfect so why do you act like you know everything? Why do you condemn other people's actions? If you are that good, why don't you do it yourself instead. Every heard of initiative. Hahas maybe this is the clash with the pessismist meets the optimist. I'm just very sick of seeing people think like their life is the worst when actually its not that hard. There's a way around things its just how you do it. In case you haven't realised, people around you are trying so hard to accomodate to you. Accomodate to your temper, to your fuss, to your mood, to your every little thing and its because they treat you as your friend. Don't condemn your friend like that. Please learn to be appreciative before you lose everthing around you. I'm just very sick of you dampening my mood. I like to be happy.


If you can't grow up, you are going to learn it the hard way.   ¶ 10:05 PM

  Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Day.. and it was raining so heavily *sulks. I don't like rainy days. Went to tutorials in shorts and slippers =x a little unglam right. wanted to be on time for today's tutorial ( it was at 1130am ) but ya the weather was so nice and cooling. Absolutely suitable for sleeping so i slept till 11am =x and yes i was late for tutorial again ( with Rebecca). We have been late for tutorials for the past 2 days together hahas. Think the people in my tutorial group is very used to it. So basically, today's attempt to be early failed ! Its okay tomorrow i shall try to be early for my 8.30am lecture. The keyword is TRY !

Rebecca gave me a treat at Expresso Cafe (at least i think that's the name of the cafe) today during our one hour break. We had creamy mushroom pie, hot chocolate, orange juice, scrone and my favourite BLUEBERRY CHEESECAKE ! The atmosphere was pretty good cause it was raining so heavily and the place wasn't well litted. The blueberry cheesecake wasn't the best cause its crust was the sponge type and the cheese was yea not exactly very cheesy. Rebecca said that she can bake better cheesecakes but hahas she's not going to bake one for me =(. Anyway thank you for the treat, came as a very pleasant surprise.

And today is pretty significant because its the first time i skipped a lecture in university =x. Honestly, HC 201 is killing me and none of us ( xinling, rebecca and me) understand what is going on during lectures so we decided to sneak out of school to watch a movie. Wanted to watch a horror flick because coincidentally xinling, rebecca and me enjoy watching horror flick. HOW RARE RIGHT ! Ps ( The Shutterbabes love watching horror flick too ) so yay found another group to watch horror flicks with me but the earliest slot for it was 0740pm so we watched hairspray instead which was FANTASTIC too. You literally want to dance along to the music.

I rushed back down for my Animal lovers' society interview and Rebecca accompanied me. She's such a darling. Hahas and think i screwed it up but heck hahahs. Its okay. Want to give Rebecca a big big hug for accompanying me cause there were like about 10 people in the queue before me so the whole interview took quite long. Dinner with her was love too =)


Bought apple pie back for Cheryl and hahahs guess what she was having a craving for it =x i'm starting to think we might be telepathic *horror. And i love my roomie =) Was telling her yesterday that i no longer regard her as my best friend but only my roomie *rolls on the floor. More insight into our hostel life in the next few entries. Just know that we love driving each other insane =D

Busy busy busy busy day but it was also a lovely lovely lovely day.






Note: Tan Yong An, do you realised that you haven't been spending time with the 3 of us *BIG BIG SULKS. We miss you la~  ¶ 11:04 PM

  The people who said that university was fun and easier than Jc lied ! They should all roll on the floor a million and one times. Hahas the readings are never ending and the lecturers give them like as though all of us speed read. I have decided to be a convert. I have officially decided to be a mugger so that i can firstly finish my readings, secondly get into the Dean's list and lastly get some tan-lim-ang-ah-hock-seng-beng book prize. I have never figured why the book prize must be named after people. Some lecture theatres and libraries in NTU are also named after apparently famous people. Oh well so after slacking for a week, its time to mug everyday. Everybody rejoice with me. The exams are in november and i seriously can't imagine myself taking the exams for some modules especially HC 201. My teacher for this course is still somewhere in the province in China. Oh well anyway see me mug okay !!!!!! -Proud mugger-

And people who are close to me should celebrate because jingfang has decided to try to kick the habit of always being late. Everyone who is happy: BREATHE. good hahas i see positive responses. Been late for a few pretty important events recently and i decided this is not the way. I ended up taking the taxi from pasir ris to Jurong which is without a doubt, EXPENSIVE ! Hahas i took up this temporary job at Jurong Imm as an I pod promoter for a weekend and on both days, i overslept AND had to take the taxi !



Cheryl says go and eat...its getting late its getting late so the entry shall stop here for the time being. Bye bye folks. Say hi to cheryl when you see her okay. Remember to bring rotten eggs too =)



Now cheryl threatens me and ask me not to eat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! People bring along cabbage and tomatoes too okays ? *wink wink.




to be continued..WAIT



and now cheryl says i'm horrible...hahas people just harpon her !!!!!!!! thanks =) bye bye  ¶ 6:33 PM

  And this week marks the third week that i've been staying in the hall. Its only wednesday and i've already received a few pleasant surprise. Firstly Kian Ping and Jingwei actually came visiting. Hahas it was so comical ! Can you believe it after seven long years, i finally got to see them ! It was so embarrassing. I was in my Tpjc top and FBT bottoms, wearing my big white specs. Didn't really bother to comb my hair that day and they had to come visiting. OH MY !!!! not to mention that i was busy rushing out an assignment that day. Hahas they were banging so hard on the door because i was wearing my earpiece and listening to some bubblegum pop. Cheryl had to open the door and i had the shock of my life. Hahas i didn't know how to react can. Their first impression of me is gone gone gone gone gone. Anyway it was really a pleasant surprise. Hee hee quite sweet of them to bang on almost every single door of block 60 to look for me. Hahas rolls on the floor. Kian ping even left sweet corn for my floor to savour. Thanks dude~ hahahs.


Surprise number 2 Chun gave me my belated birthday present and its a purple bear. Usually when i see purple bear i will be like yeEeEeEeEEEeeEe but this purple bear is different. Its mine and its from chun !!!!! that's why its so special. It has a name hahas its called 小紫. Love Love Love. Thank you so much chun and hey 我们要做永远的朋友，不要分开。永远也不知道会有多远。我们就慢慢地走下去，下一个路口一定会有你陪伴着我。因为我不会让你有安宁的生活的*
尖笑 =)

Surprise number 3 Rebecca baked brownies for me. YAY ! nice nice nice. Rebecca is really nice, she lets me bully her, laugh at her and share food with her. Hahas no matter how tired Rebecca is, she will still try to give in to her friends' demands. like mine ! hahas and she wanted to come over to hall 12 just to pass me the brownies so that they will be fresh when she stays at hall 8 which is like about 1km away? So yep the brownies tastes exceptionally nice and hahas she said they were made with love *PUKES hahahahas. And i know the secret recipe to bake the brownies~ i shall be the next best brownie maker !

Surprise number 4 Pop called to say that he misses me. So sweet right =)





So admist all the work and readings that are NEVERENDING, the people around me never fail to keep me sane. I guess i am really learning to be independent.






nowiseriouslydontknowwhatiwant

  ¶ 1:28 PM

  今天上了第一堂课，发现自己远远比不上其他同学。突然间有一点担心。老师在课堂上说的我也一知半解。哈哈其实是一点都不明白吧。真的要加油了！我连最基本的文学都有问题。还好有 Yong An 在帮我。他其实有点像雪中送炭。有他在真好。 慢慢地也开始习惯了这间超大的学校。可能大学没那么恐怖。


  ¶ 9:42 PM

  Homesick Moved in to Ntu hostel today and i'm feeling super homesick already. It has only been less than 12 hours and mama has been with me the whole day. She's still with me right now as i blog but i still miss home. Sobs sobs. Hahas you must be thinking that Jingfang's really lousy right. *Whines i miss home already ! You know its times like that when i realised how great my parents really are. Pups helped me to buy a kettle the very next day after i told him that i needed one. Mops came down on both days when i moved my stuff in, just to make sure hahas. Mops even went around to buy all the daily necessities i need. She even helped to remember what i need to bring down. Don't know what i'll do without Pups and Mops. Love Love. Now my room really feels like a room. To make everyone jealous..i'm going to have a television and refrigerator in my room *proud. All i'm short of is zeeeeeeee aircon. There are times when i feel really frustrated by Pups and Mops but then they always make me feel so loved. I must really start looking beyond me and trying to put myself in their position. They don't hesitate to splurge on their kids. I went to Crystal Jade with Mops for lunch and we walked around. I bought 2 Cds and 1 Sudoku book ( do not laugh and do not think that Jiing cannot finish a single Sudoku okays !). They were all results of impulse buying and yet Mops allowed me to buy them. Heart ?Heart. i feel really both loved and homesick today.

I miss Pups, Mops, Kops and Pop.
and yes yes yes Mama misses you nic and ginger loads and loads and loads.

我真的很幸福。


andtrustmechillibananaisbacktohauntimquitepositive  ¶ 7:03 PM