This whole week has been pretty frustrating for me. I perpetually wake up feeling like a grouch everyday. *GROWLS* I didn't manage to sleep well at night. It's like you wake up feeling that you didn't sleep a wink at all. Maybe it's a little exaggerating but yea I feel that I didn't get enough rest and nope I'm not suffering from insomnia. Hahas I'm tired and I need rest but I'm not getting it. I'm a grouchy penguin *bites you*



I'm lagging behind my school work too. There are so many assignments waving at me. Let's not even touch on revision okay. Hahas oh man, I seriously hope I can pick up after the short break that's coming up. This is definitely not a year to fool around. Someone wake me up~ not during September though =x

*hums wake me up when September ends*

But seriously Praise the Lord that He made everything beautiful in His time and this week went pass just fine without any serious upheavals.

Trust in the Lord and do not be discouraged.
Trust in the Lord and stop that feeling blue.
Trust in the Lord and you will be encouraged
Today and everyday !

=D

Zhuang left for Kuching yesterday to celebrate Chinese New Year. He didn’t even want to let me send him off =(

Evil Evil Evil Evil Evil !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bon Voyage Silly Cockroach~

Anyway I met up with Cheryl instead and we caught Memoirs of a Geisha. "Memoirs of a Geisha" is definitely worth the money !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love Zhang Zi Yi who acts as Sayuri in the show. Her eyes are so captivating. I'm sure those who watched the movie who agree. Oh my gosh ! Her eyes, her eyes, her eyes !!!!!! I want contacts like that too but I heard they don't sell it here in Singapore. Boo~ Hahas I am considering reading the book after the catching the movie. Nice ~

Anyway people do catch it yea =D

I like a few quotes from the movie, I think it's very intriguing and triggers the mind.
Personally, I learnt something from the movie about love, about having the courage to dream when everything is void.

When was the last time you followed your dreams? Or have you stopped believing in the beauty of dreams?

Here's a little something on friendship:

He patted my head yesterday and I feel so safe. I felt like a little girl in front of him. I felt like I could open up my heart to him and tell him everything. He leaned towards me yesterday, ready to lend me a listening ear. Thank you =) It's nice to know there's someone who cares. Maybe we will be close friends in the future but friendship is a very delicate thing. The more you try to forge one, the more futile it gets. I took a very long time to understand this and I'm not going to risk it this time. All I can say is thank you for being around.

=D

A friend told me today that he has an issue with closeness and every time he is close to a person, the person will gradually distant from him. Hey, don't worry okay ! I know we have felt the coldness and once in awhile, it seems like you can't seem to understand me anymore and I can't seem to relate to you anymore. Its okay yea things will be fine. You aren't cursed silly. We will work things out. We will..

So I guess friendship like any relationship requires effort to keep it burning. It’s unexplainable how friends come together. That's why friends are families that God sent just that we find them in our walk in life.

I'm sorry to say that no matter how hard I try, I'm still unable to open up your heart. But if you need somebody, I'll always be there.

  ¶ 7:48 PM

  Tuesday Blues You know how people get the monday blues..Well i'm unique. I'm suffer from TUESDAY BLUES =pPp



Yea i woke up today feeling grouchy and all. I even kicked my mum =xXx It was a light kick, playful kick ? accidental kick? Its anything but my fault =xXx



Escapism..



So yea i went to school feeling horrible because i had to do a presentation for history tutorial and my gay posted the question i was supposed to present online. Just when i needed my computer the most, it fails me. Technology fails me every single time. I was super super pissed that i couldn't do my work because of my computer. Had some complications with the cookies. ARH !!!!!!!!!!!




I wanted to munch a cookie at that moment *literally





I learnt my lesson though. It feels horrible to do last minute work. I always get the runny nose when i panic. *drips drips drips* I need to be more disciplined and get all my work done for lessons rather than panic in the morning. I can't stand the sense of helplessness that takes over me when things aren't within my control. Its really depressing to realise that i left something really important at home because i didn't bother to pack my bag the night before. Jingfang, you got to learn girl. I need to stop having the notion that i can blatently ask my maid to drop by to pass me the stuff that i need. shake head..PACK MY BAG AT NIGHT !!!!!!! I MUST I MUST !!!!!! I know its impractical to plan out my whole life. However if planning can help a person to be more organised and prevent all the confrontations that results in nerve wrecking emotions, why not ???



But Praise the Lord, things weren't too bad :))



1)History presentation cleared.
2)Othello re-test for the 3rd time cleared * for the time being until the results are back
and the rest of the day went well.
3)Mich came me strawberry chocolate which brightened my day cause i was starving at that moment. =xXXXx
Thank you Mich :)) very timely indeed hahas.
4)Practical Criticism class was fun :))
5)Othello re-test was quite entertaining.




While all of us were desperately scribbling and using our brain juices to recall what happened in Act 4 and 5 of Othello..and admist the deafening silence, we heard..A FART coming from Mr Reynolds direction ( one of my Literature teacher) !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xD

And we couldn't contain ourselves and started to giggle.



Then Mr Reynolds went " New Shoes =D "
Hiak hiak hiak.



Anyway farting is a natural process..PUH LEASE don't tell me you never ever farted. =xXx
If you dare say you have never ever farted.." I say you are ill, go see a doctor my friend"





CONCLUSIOn: Tuesday blues occur in the morning.




And while watching Si Hui and Nadia run 10 endless rounds, I thought i saw xxxxx xxx but it was actually not him. I had the shock of my life. I was like huh? isn't he suppose to be in xxxxxx..what was he doing in school? i stood up and looked around again only to realise its his look alike. Sigh. I think i'm starting to hallucinate. This is not good.



But that feeling that swept through me was so familiar. I was losing that feeling yet at the same time trying so hard to keep it ever since he left. Today i felt it again. The very thought of him and the possibility that he could be around changed everything.




I need to learn to get use to going to school with the knowledge that he's no longer around.




I miss you and i'm praying for your safety every single day.   ¶ 5:56 PM

  Bye bye Medicine I'm FINALLY off medication !!!! YES !!!!!!!!!!!!

:)) can't wait to play badminton again. See you girls tomorrow yea.

I have a new resolution: I want to do everything to my utmost best with God's grace =D

His name, my favourite phrase..
  ¶ 7:46 PM

  Ice cream I'm here to say a BIG BIG thank you to Jing Huang for solving the problem with my link =)

I owe you an ice cream =pPp

Yes yes i know ~ *waves my hands in the air~*
Now i know who to look for when i have problems with my bloggie.

:)) Thank you "Brother"

Ps..Emu you will get an ice cream too *sticks tongue out*







thinking about you --> it's all in a day's work   ¶ 7:34 PM

  Something very important I lost something very important today =(

Why am i so careless..

I lost Chilli banana..

Shake head. Nope not the person..i lost the very special Chilli Banana badge when i went to visit the doctor today.

Sobs sobs. I wish i could find it back.

I left the clinic once i found out it was missing and traced back the route i took to get to the clinic but to no avail.

SIGH !~ i want the chilli banana badge back !

and my heart skipped a beat when i saw him yesterday. I didn't know he still had that effect on me. like woah. We talked for quite some time before his bus came. Just a casual chat. He hasn't change much..still full of nonsense but that's that charming part. He puts you at ease. Hmms..but yea i could feel my heart racing throughout the whole conversation. What a feeling but i'm over him..i know i am. =)

There's someone else now..someone new and the reason for all my smiles.

Past and present..i choose my present choice. you !  ¶ 5:46 PM

  An interesting conversation Characters -->

1)16 days and counting* my emotional indicator= Lovely cute adorable Me :))



2)Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... = INSIGNIFICANT AND
EVERYTHING NASTY XD aka My OGM aka my Brother



3)it's in the stars! it's in the stars!= Bestie Xinyi =)




PART 1

One fine day, i was having a chat with my OGM ( Orientation Group member ) and this very conversation started..it went



Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... writes:






*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says:
hahas



*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says:
i am so going to blog this down



*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says:
you are dead !!!!!!!!!!!!!!



So here i am to DEFAME JINGHUANG, my ogm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He is 26cm taller than me (-_-")




PART 2
He then proceeds to curse me after several minutes.. while Xinyi joined in our conversation..




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
*points at jingfang*
*mutter some dark spells*




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
*kill you with a toothpick*



*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says:
*kicks Jinghuang



*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says:
*takes out a voodoo



*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says:
*stabs a million and one needles in




*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says:
it




it's in the stars! it's in the stars! says:
ok i think it worked




it's in the stars! it's in the stars! says: he's not answering



Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says: ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH




it's in the stars! it's in the stars! says: he has a million and one needles in him



it's in the stars! it's in the stars! says: ahahaha




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says: an ant just bit me




*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says: hahas




*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says: see the million and one needles translated into an ant




*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says: =D



Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says: an ant called jing fang




*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says: (-_-")




Note: You see JingHuang is positively evil !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He calls me an ant !!!!!





Part 3
Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
this is you:
.

this is me





I think its becoming his obession..CHAM ! He keeps rattling on and on about the difference in height.boo~ get the joke?? I'm the tiny short dot..and he's the long lengthy whatever thingy~





Part 4
*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
what




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
calm down




Jinghuang ™ hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
later you changed from
. to _




Boohoo..Jinghuang is evil and bad and everything nasty..
Then Xinyi had to leave ..and i went to watch Full Metal Alchemist so i was away..take note i was away !!!!!!!!!




it's in the stars! it's in the stars! has left the conversation.




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
MONSTER




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
HELP




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
HELP~!!!!!!!




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
JING FANG IS A WITCH




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
LALALAH




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
HELLO




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
WITCH




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
SILENCE MEANS CONSENT




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
55




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
5*




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
4




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
3




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
2




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
1




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
.. ok




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
,-,-, ';...;' ,-,-,
RAWR




Comments from me..None~

PART 5
Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
i rox more




*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says:
hahas




*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says:
so not




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
hey stop defying me ok




*16 days and counting* my emotional indicator says:
why should i obey you?




Jinghuang hmm.. deep thinking in process... says:
cos im your bro




Hahas fancy my "brother" behaving like that~ =pPp

But actually Jinghuang is very nice and entertaining. hahas this conversation was all in the name of FUn =pPp




I'm wishing on a star, wondering where you are. Do i cross your mind in the warm sunshine ?  ¶ 3:53 PM

  Just a thought Something's wrong with my links..anyone care to tell me what??????



I have a friend
I have a classmate
He comes to school
but he's never in class.
Nope, i'm not disgusted
Neither am i angry at him.
I'm pretty disappointed actually.


I wished he would come for lessons.
I thought he could wait for lessons to end
before playing in the basketball court.


I rather think that he's at home
feeling ill and uncomfortable
worrying about school work
then to gain access to the knowledge
that he's in school but never in class



Fact is, He's a fast learner
Fact is, He's very knowlegable
Fact is, He's very witty
Fact is, everyone is class is willing to lend a helping hand


But he's never there. I wonder why.

Thought of the day:Do we cause people around us to worry unnecessarily?




I have faith in you :)) We'll strive together and the knowledge that we are going through this period together comforts me.  ¶ 6:33 PM

  New Skin Hey guys..i changed my template.

The boxes can be dragged around muahahas.

xD Its a little messy though but for the time being i'll stick to this plain one =)

Oh and feel free to change the colour of the background okays with the 4 coloured boxes.

That's all for now  ¶ 8:17 PM

  I don't wish to see 2006 pass me by. It has been 18 days and frankly, i haven't done much. *gasps* Other than rushing my homework and the LONG overdue holiday homework, all other things are left undone. Hmms and i haven't been leading a prayful life =(. Oh Lord, have mercy on me. Jingfang~ go all out kays =) <-- Self motivation hahas

Okay and i FINALLY went for my second operation ! *hip hip hurray* Praise the Lord. I'm feeling superb now cause my back doesn't hurt as compared to the previous weeks. The wound is really deep this time round and because the Doc isn't able to get all the pus out, he shaft a gauze into the wound. *double ouch* hahas but i'm healing well. Praise the Lord. And guys i'm recovering fine so don't worry yea.

I'm quite sick of eating so much medicine though xD hahas and they are all very acidic and can cause gastric very easily if i'm not careful. Do you know what that means.. I have to take regular meals. (-_-") Its not like taking regular meals are bad but its troublesome yea.

Oh and i discovered something very heartwarming recently =). My babies..OG 8, are still hanging around together even though its like the 3rd week into the orientation and they are divided into different class. *muacks* you guys are so loving...xD and they are gradually turning into little devils from my baby angels. Hahas making fun of one another and all. *tsk tsk* but i'm really comforted to know that the orientation did help to bond them together. And I keep bumping into them in school. Its not like i put a tracking machine and stuff. Pure coincidence okays =pPp Anyway guys i think i'll organise a OG 8 outing soon kays. Will let you guys know the details soon. Till then stay together =) Hope to see you guys around even around 1st 3 months yea.

Note: Jing Huang I am so not stalking you *sticks tongue out* I figured that its the other way round right. That's for accusing me lalala~ Evil laughs

On a sad note, i miss my OGLs and Yi Xiang, Edwin and Cheryl. Anyone else?? Hmms maybe Jerome?? But yea overall i miss the seniors. It feels kinda odd being the senior in the school. When i go into Tpjc.net and i look under annoucements, it just doesn't feel right to look at the Jc 2 stuff hahas. Oh wells..life is all about growing up and accepting change. Just when you are accustomed to a certain someone, certain something or even a certain place, you realise that its gone/ changed the very next moment. There's nothing much we can do but to accept change graciously and with the abundant mercy from God, we will pull through. Amen.

And for the first time yesterday during Practical Criticism, I was genuinely interested. The play was funny for starters and the emphasis of the question was on the humour present in the play. The humour is actually pretty subtle but its the way that Ms Lee phrase it that makes it sound very funny. Okay i realise that i am unable to convert this feelings into words so i shall stop here xD this is to remind myself Practical Criticism can be fun :))

And frankly, literature has taken on a whole new meaning this year.
5 years ago
Literature = My first love
5 years later
Literature = TIME BOMB

I hope i find my first love for literature back soon and focus on whatever i am doing. I get distracted so easily, its like one moment i'm doing my essay and the next moment i'm beside Kel looking at "cheap humour" clips from a certain web page =XxXx. FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS

And do you know what this word is ? Hal New Sin Nation. This is how Stephan King picture a child spelling Hallucination in " The Shining" amazing don't you think. I can relate to it because i always had an issue with spelling. Yes yes laugh at Jingfang for not being able to spelling properly. HAHAHAHA~ MEANIES !

This reminds me of all the unfinished work i have. *GROWLS* bangs my head on the wall.

God's all sufficient grace will lead me through all these mundane chores.

Peace out !

Take care of yourself =) and whenever you feel lost, don't forget that the stars still glow for you  ¶ 3:50 PM

  1st entry for 2006 2006 is all about A level's..
That pretty much sums it up for my focus of 2006 xD

Been in and out of the surgery clinic recently. Just had an operation last friday to remove the abscess on my back and within a week another one pops out.

THIS IS SO IRRITATING *SULKS* and it hurts real bad~

Went to the doc today AGAIN but he didn't want to operate on me this time round because the abscess isn't full grown yet. Operating on it now would only result in a 2cm hole and removing all the infected tissue without getting to the root of the problem. All i can do now is to rely on stronger antibiotics.

So i'm a medicine bottle now. 6 pills per session *gulps*

Speaking of Doc, he showed me another side of him today. While waiting for the nurse to bring up the operating tools, we had a small chat and he told me that he enjoys watching the intensity of the rain change. He is very amused that one moment it is pouring very heavily and after a while it lightens to drizzles. He is so in touch with his emotional side..=D

But then again, I don't like rainy days. Never did..don't think i ever will. Reason being nil.

AND I'M HAVING A HARD TIME TRYING TO DRY MY CLOTHES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Smelly *pinches my nose*

I think 2006 has a lot in store for me and i'm looking forward to everything ~
Bring in on..

Thank you for everything..
thank you for lifting me up and never letting me down :))


  ¶ 2:19 PM