Monday, April 30, 2007
Its not that hard to remember that day. I was crying very badly and somehow i couldn't stop the tears from flowing. I told myself i shouldn't call you now. Nope, not now..not until i stopped crying. I won't want you to hear me cry over the phone but it still happened. I did wait for the tears to stop before i call. I ask ya if you were free and you told me your recept would only come at 2pm :) I told ya to tell me a joke and you sounded puzzle. Hahas yes a joke because i wanted to hear a joke to stop the tears from coming. Yet your voice just made me cry. I don't know why, i just started crying. I really didn't want you to hear my awful sobbings but in the end you still did. I hung up and told ya i'll call you in awhile. You sounded really worried and asked me what's wrong. I could hear the anxiousness in your tone and i was touched. Its always this concern in your voice that makes me so attracted to you cause i know you truly cared. I called you a second time and this time round,i had to stifle the tears. I know i wouldn't cry this time round but you told me today was your last day and the tears came rolling down again. This time round for another reason. I was crying and panicking that you were leaving cause i thought it was your last day and i didn't know how to cope without you. Silly you, it was merely transfering outlets. You should have said so earlier then i wouldn't cry so badly. But then again, looking back, i know you were the rightful owner to the tears that i shed. because when you said last day at paradiz and that you were going to marina square, i thought you were still be around to watch out for me. You didn't tell me that you were going to leave me like now. You ask me if you could call me from suntec city the next day and i smiled to myself. Those were the little things you used to do that touched my heart but you're really gone now. Things over at my workplace are improving and i'm getting used to the system but i wouldn't mind giving up all this and return to the days when i was still struggling with work but with you to comfort me. Yes, i know my angel's angel was the reason why you left. If i could, i wouldn't have pushed you away time after time. I miss you and each time i think about you, i'll still cry cause you mean so much to me.
jeffreyicantseemtosaygoodbye ¶ 10:23 PM
jeffreyicantseemtosaygoodbye ¶ 10:23 PM
