Saturday, October 06, 2007
Okay i'm going to try to write this down in a very light hearted manner. I promise i'll try.
Studies.
The amount of assignments that are due for the next two months are crazy ! Just settled Hc 102 so called "mini" assignment this week. And next week, i'll have to face Hc 102 "Not So Mini" assignment, Hw101c
"explainatheoryfromyourdisciplinebuticantfindonesoilltrytobluffmywaythroughasusual" assignment and "好极了"老师 is going to test us with the poems from 诗经. Busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy week. Hc101 and Hc 201 assignments are also due soon. I haven't even thought about HL 809's thesis la ! Wails ! ROARS ! Who said uni life was going to be a breeze ? And all these are on top of all the readings that are piling. Oh my ! Uni life is so suffocating.
But above all these, i think i'll survive. I must survive. For pups and mops, i want to make them proud :)
The other day i went down to Nuh to visit mops and i told her i felt like quitting school and i think she was quite shocked by what i told her. She kept asking me if i was joking and even asked her friend to talk me out of it. I'm quite sick of studying. Its like this is the (let me count) 13th straight year that i'm studying and i just want to have a break. Mops reminded me that once i lose my momentum, i wouldn't feel like studying again. Its ironic that i really feel like withdrawing from school but yet i know i wouldn't simply because, yea simply because. I can't explain it.There isn't exactly a solid reason. I shrugged that thought away on my way back to Ntu. And then i discussed with pups about the financial loan and that was when i really decided that i'm going to be really focued and study. I know mops and pups will be very disappointed if i just drop out like that. I could hear that heartache and pain in his tone over the phone as we discussed about the money issue. Initially i thought that pups could pay for my uni fees without much difficulty but it was after that day that i realised that he still feel the pinch. Its their hard earned money and it really broke my heart that i was being so selfish.But i'm really glad that i talked to them. I feel like i have a reason and the motivation to carry on doing what i'm doing :).
All i want is for people around me to be happy. When they are happy, i'm happy too. So even though i cringe at all the assignments that i'm going to have to complete, i know its all worthwhile.
Kbox.
And recently i keep thinking about Julin and Ros. I miss them so much but i can't seem to find the time to meet up with them. I feel so guilty especially towards Ros. I keep telling her that i'll be able to meet up with her but then i end up having some other stuff. I really really really really really wish i can find the time to catch up with them. I miss working in Kbox. Yes there's was a period of unhappiness but it ended with a happy note. I miss the entire morning crew ( both old and new ), i miss julin.capt ben.james.skinny skinny.guoming. maggie.mr jacky.ai ping. hwee ling. yvonne. I miss making all the phone calls to all the different outlets, i miss getting pissed at the customers, i miss all my regular customers, i miss writing in those books, i miss photocopying stuff, i miss looking at Ros from my counter, i miss gossipping with Julin, i miss laughing with Julin at the counter. Sigh~ i miss that place. Heard that kbmp will be closing down soon because we didn't get the bid. Miss miss miss miss miss miss miss.
Its so hard to maintain relationships with people. Its such an intrigate affair that requires so much effort and once we don't do it well, we end up losing the people that we actually care a lot for. So to the kbmp people, I miss you guys so so much. And Ros..i really really really really really really really hope we can meet up soon.
Laptop.
Don't have to elaborate much for this. Basically my laptop's lan port is spoilt so i'm surviving without a laptop in my hostel. Somebody save me !
So many thoughts and there's only this amount of words that can express how i feel. ¶ 6:17 PM
Studies.
The amount of assignments that are due for the next two months are crazy ! Just settled Hc 102 so called "mini" assignment this week. And next week, i'll have to face Hc 102 "Not So Mini" assignment, Hw101c
"explainatheoryfromyourdisciplinebuticantfindonesoilltrytobluffmywaythroughasusual" assignment and "好极了"老师 is going to test us with the poems from 诗经. Busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy week. Hc101 and Hc 201 assignments are also due soon. I haven't even thought about HL 809's thesis la ! Wails ! ROARS ! Who said uni life was going to be a breeze ? And all these are on top of all the readings that are piling. Oh my ! Uni life is so suffocating.
But above all these, i think i'll survive. I must survive. For pups and mops, i want to make them proud :)
The other day i went down to Nuh to visit mops and i told her i felt like quitting school and i think she was quite shocked by what i told her. She kept asking me if i was joking and even asked her friend to talk me out of it. I'm quite sick of studying. Its like this is the (let me count) 13th straight year that i'm studying and i just want to have a break. Mops reminded me that once i lose my momentum, i wouldn't feel like studying again. Its ironic that i really feel like withdrawing from school but yet i know i wouldn't simply because, yea simply because. I can't explain it.There isn't exactly a solid reason. I shrugged that thought away on my way back to Ntu. And then i discussed with pups about the financial loan and that was when i really decided that i'm going to be really focued and study. I know mops and pups will be very disappointed if i just drop out like that. I could hear that heartache and pain in his tone over the phone as we discussed about the money issue. Initially i thought that pups could pay for my uni fees without much difficulty but it was after that day that i realised that he still feel the pinch. Its their hard earned money and it really broke my heart that i was being so selfish.But i'm really glad that i talked to them. I feel like i have a reason and the motivation to carry on doing what i'm doing :).
All i want is for people around me to be happy. When they are happy, i'm happy too. So even though i cringe at all the assignments that i'm going to have to complete, i know its all worthwhile.
Kbox.
And recently i keep thinking about Julin and Ros. I miss them so much but i can't seem to find the time to meet up with them. I feel so guilty especially towards Ros. I keep telling her that i'll be able to meet up with her but then i end up having some other stuff. I really really really really really wish i can find the time to catch up with them. I miss working in Kbox. Yes there's was a period of unhappiness but it ended with a happy note. I miss the entire morning crew ( both old and new ), i miss julin.capt ben.james.skinny skinny.guoming. maggie.mr jacky.ai ping. hwee ling. yvonne. I miss making all the phone calls to all the different outlets, i miss getting pissed at the customers, i miss all my regular customers, i miss writing in those books, i miss photocopying stuff, i miss looking at Ros from my counter, i miss gossipping with Julin, i miss laughing with Julin at the counter. Sigh~ i miss that place. Heard that kbmp will be closing down soon because we didn't get the bid. Miss miss miss miss miss miss miss.
Its so hard to maintain relationships with people. Its such an intrigate affair that requires so much effort and once we don't do it well, we end up losing the people that we actually care a lot for. So to the kbmp people, I miss you guys so so much. And Ros..i really really really really really really really hope we can meet up soon.
Laptop.
Don't have to elaborate much for this. Basically my laptop's lan port is spoilt so i'm surviving without a laptop in my hostel. Somebody save me !
So many thoughts and there's only this amount of words that can express how i feel. ¶ 6:17 PM
