Wednesday, December 14, 2005
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Its 7.30 am and i am already in the office. The daily routine of staring at the computer has started. i think today is going to be a bad day. Anyway the office is empty except for yours truly and so i'm here to start my day by blogging. Normally i don't have the time to actually blog as the amount of things that are waiting for me to do is like * WOAH* so since i'm really early today, i shall reward myself by blogging.
But yea its going to be really passive cause i'm feeling all these negative emotions within due to "a session of unfortunate events".
Firstly, my mother deleted messenges from my phone without my permission. I lent her my phone as her phone is currently under repair so i am now phoneless. My dad's friend, Aunty Adeline has been an angel and lent me her E600C ( the only good thing that happened ). My mum being a super GOON, thinks that there isn't enough space for her sms to come in so she blatently deleted my messeges from ***** *** and she hasn't apologized. I told myself not to make a big fuss over it but those messeges really meant a lot to me. Sigh..Mama !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And i think something major is going to happen soon, i got to make a choice. I just want things to be the same but looking at the current situation, there is a need to make a choice.. and it better be soon. I can pretend to be oblivious but i'm not. Oh Lord, i'm really sorry for not consulting you. =(
And many discouraging things just occured in the place closest to my heart. The people are so complex, so complicated. Its all a facade and i'm getting very sick of it. Where is the reality of God's words i wonder. You think you are the popular group, is that why you act this way?? condemning almost everyone you see, judging everyone who cross your path with your standards. HYPOCRITES ! I hope you feel bad for doing that. I am really displeased with all your acts and the things you said but who am i to judge. All i can say is you stumbled me. =( but Praise the Lord, i know He will preserve me.
Why do you guys act like you love one another when deep down the love is merely an act?
And i don't understand why is she so hostile towards me. She practically snaps at me and it is not in a joking sense. No one has ever been so crude and hostile towards me before, not in that manner. Its deliberate, she uses every chance to snap at me and insult me with her words. I don't understand why she's behaving like that. I had a rude shock when she first displayed her attitude and i can tell its only towards me. I am very very DISGUSTED AND DISAPPOINTED in her. Lord i need you to show me what to do.
In short..I think she's a bimbo, artificially made who has an issue with penguins. I have my own likings and this is the way i behave. If you have an issue with me, tell it to me straight. Don't show me your attitude cause i don't deserve it.
I wish i could just smile my day away like how i used to..
I wish i could never grow up then you will love me for who i am..
i wish i was oblivious to the sadness in the world
i wish i could go to the island with you
i wish all my wishes would come true
but i know they wouldn't cause i simply know
This is just a phase that i will have to go through. I'm fine..i'll be fine *promise*
I rather you be mean then love and lie. ¶ 7:44 AM
But yea its going to be really passive cause i'm feeling all these negative emotions within due to "a session of unfortunate events".
Firstly, my mother deleted messenges from my phone without my permission. I lent her my phone as her phone is currently under repair so i am now phoneless. My dad's friend, Aunty Adeline has been an angel and lent me her E600C ( the only good thing that happened ). My mum being a super GOON, thinks that there isn't enough space for her sms to come in so she blatently deleted my messeges from ***** *** and she hasn't apologized. I told myself not to make a big fuss over it but those messeges really meant a lot to me. Sigh..Mama !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And i think something major is going to happen soon, i got to make a choice. I just want things to be the same but looking at the current situation, there is a need to make a choice.. and it better be soon. I can pretend to be oblivious but i'm not. Oh Lord, i'm really sorry for not consulting you. =(
And many discouraging things just occured in the place closest to my heart. The people are so complex, so complicated. Its all a facade and i'm getting very sick of it. Where is the reality of God's words i wonder. You think you are the popular group, is that why you act this way?? condemning almost everyone you see, judging everyone who cross your path with your standards. HYPOCRITES ! I hope you feel bad for doing that. I am really displeased with all your acts and the things you said but who am i to judge. All i can say is you stumbled me. =( but Praise the Lord, i know He will preserve me.
Why do you guys act like you love one another when deep down the love is merely an act?
And i don't understand why is she so hostile towards me. She practically snaps at me and it is not in a joking sense. No one has ever been so crude and hostile towards me before, not in that manner. Its deliberate, she uses every chance to snap at me and insult me with her words. I don't understand why she's behaving like that. I had a rude shock when she first displayed her attitude and i can tell its only towards me. I am very very DISGUSTED AND DISAPPOINTED in her. Lord i need you to show me what to do.
In short..I think she's a bimbo, artificially made who has an issue with penguins. I have my own likings and this is the way i behave. If you have an issue with me, tell it to me straight. Don't show me your attitude cause i don't deserve it.
I wish i could just smile my day away like how i used to..
I wish i could never grow up then you will love me for who i am..
i wish i was oblivious to the sadness in the world
i wish i could go to the island with you
i wish all my wishes would come true
but i know they wouldn't cause i simply know
This is just a phase that i will have to go through. I'm fine..i'll be fine *promise*
I rather you be mean then love and lie. ¶ 7:44 AM
