Monday, August 30, 2004
I'm not over you..
i went home with you.. the you i thought i have forgotten..the you i thought i had blocked out from my world..but i guess my heart didn't allow me to forget you just as yet..i gazed at you..i tried to smile so as to prove that i'm happy..i've moved on just as you have moved on but i haven't..I'm not over you..my heart still yearns to be with you..i need you but you don't need me anymore.. i know that.. when i look at you..all you see are my smiles..but do you know everytime i look out of the bus..my smile fades.. You refer to "her" as friend..but i know she's your special someone..you don't haf to refer to as friend..i accidently look at your phone..and i saw the photo of her and you..she was leaning on your shoulder.. !!!! I'm glad that you're happy..that you love her too..but i wished you would be with me...maybe..perharps..i should be contented with being your friend but i can still feel the pain.. ! i lose my strength to hold on to you ..i lose the strength to face you..all i have left..is strength left to try to forget the love i gave to you.. I thought i had no more tears left for you..presumed you will never hurt me again but i was wrong..i cried for you again..
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Wishing doesn't change anything because i always wish you would tell me you still love me but its all a vuage dream that leaves me sore when i open my eyes to face the sun that is mocking at me..i'm still exhausted !
" hey hey, what would you like? apple pie? " She turned around to face her friend and he was there. Her heart skipped a beat. "oh no" she hated the sight of him. She wished he didn't appear. She felt so small in front of him, so unworthy to stand in front of him. That was how Casuarina always felt in front the guy she likes. Unworthy to be loved.
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